[brokenheartinsc]

Another just dreadful day- it has rained here everyday for atleast the last two weeks or so and that is making my outlook even more down.
I think I will like posting here- at least I can be honest with the way that I feel and not worry about the shame or scorn that come with this sort of thing IRL.
On my way to work this morning I thought what if I just drift over in that lane where that loaded log truck is. Wonder if it will take me out of my misery. That seemed like a simple solution to get away from the pain and misery that I have been feeling as of late.
I know I should know better. I know I should be better. I know this too shall pass. But I also know that this hurts really bad. And I also know that some will say I deserve what I get for being involved with a married man. But I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone- not even him.
The thing that I can't accept is that he just walked away. Just like that- like I meant nothing. We meant nothing. That everything he said was all lies. For what??? He knew exactly where I stood and he was there with me house after house, looking for US a place to start our life.
I knew better and I guess I do deserve what I get. But how do you pick up the pieces of a life that is left over after your reason for getting out of bed each day is gone? How do you continue on when you loathe the person that is staring back at you in the mirror because of the choices she made? How long do I have to wear this fake smile on my face ?
I am lost.

[3xjj]

Its the worst. I am still struggling after a relationship ending over 6 months ago. He, too, just walked away. I am still very depressed.

[Thunder Bow]

Try to see a Therapist to help with your depression. Otherwise it will not go away.