[ombrétwilight]

I find that I do this a lot. Yesterday I was talking to my friends about the recent suicide of someone from our school and I was laughed (I know, what's wrong with me?) at some awkwardly inappropriate parts. It's not funny at all and I know what it is to be in that dark place (been there myself a few times) though they don't know. I have no idea why I joke about such morbid matters. One of my friends was rather indignant and told me I was crazy for laughing.

This happens too when I fail an exam (laughed till my sides hurt for 20 min straight) and even in therapy when I discuss abuse/suicide/SH etc. with my old T. Joking is my default mode, or else I get really uncomfortable. It's like my facial muscles start smiling automatically which can really creep some people out. My T once told me I have a very wry sarcasm which can be humorous but not everyone's cup of tea. Does anyone else find humour in serious affairs? Sometimes I feel like a freak for clowning around even if I absolutely understand the gravity of the situation.

[Thunder Bow]

Joking is your default mode and self protection mode. It how you avoid painful emotions and feelings.

[IrisBloom]

I've wondered about this myself. Some might think it shows a lack of compassion or feeling. I don't think that is true. I think it is a way of not letting things get you down. There are occasions when humor is inappropriate. I sometimes have to bite my tongue to avoid offending. But in general humor is good and there are a lot of sourpusses out there who never laugh at all. Be yourself, but be tactful.

[ombrétwilight]

Originally Posted by IrisBloom

I've wondered about this myself. Some might think it shows a lack of compassion or feeling. I don't think that is true. I think it is a way of not letting things get you down. There are occasions when humor is inappropriate. I sometimes have to bite my tongue to avoid offending. But in general humor is good and there are a lot of sourpusses out there who never laugh at all. Be yourself, but be tactful.

It's as though I laugh before I think. I agree that it's very tactless and many times I have bitten the inside of my lip to keep a straight face. If I could I would rewire my brain so I don't react so flippantly about everything, even things I'm upset about.

Yeah I am a socially awkward turtle.