[Khione]

Hello. I'm not sure what to write, I don't actually have anything to say or ask advice for. I guess I'm just lonely. So lonely it feels as though my insides have been ripped out. I could come up with a long list of words I feel and no explanation for any of them.

Usually, on other sites when I've seen other people post these kind of things, people always reply asking if they have anyone to talk to or if they are seeing any mental health professionals etc. Well, no. I'm not, not anymore. As of last Friday, I am not seeing any mental health professionals anymore due to the fact they think I'm not serious enough for adult psych help (I turn 18 soon) and that they don't know what else to do with me. Oh, and they completely bypassed everything I've wanted help with by claiming all that is wrong with me is friend-issues (even though I've tried to talk about anxiety and feeling down and my past etc)...

So I just give up a little. I tried to talk to my mum earlier but after I said I wasn't feeling okay, she asked why and I couldn't get any words out. I just couldn't say anything. I have a habbit of repeating myself and so I guess I am now thinking I shouldn't say anything because no one really cares or has heard it all before.

My boyfriend has helped tonight. But he's going to his friends tomorrow and it kills me because all I want to do is talk to him. But I can't because he's actually happy for the first time in the last few months and he needs his 'down days' apart from me since I put so much stress on him and I exhaust him out (we both agreed this, and I understand it). But in times like this, it kills me.

I end up breaking down and thinking stupid things (like self-harming again - I wont, but I want to so badly). I want to just ball my eyes out and cry. So I decided to write this post to help me not cry and not get so down. I guess I feel a bit better.

[Lonely Kitten]

So sorry you're feeling so down. I just wanted you to know you're not alone. I'm having a really tough day today too. I feel really sad today, and all I want to do is curl up in bed and cry. Hang in there.

[Bewilderbeest]

Originally Posted by Khione

I tried to talk to my mum earlier but after I said I wasn't feeling okay, she asked why and I couldn't get any words out. I just couldn't say anything.

Have you thought about writing it all down for her? Might help if you have trouble talking about it.

Sorry you're feeling so down, Khione. We're listening.

[Khione]

Thank you both. I'm sorry youre having a bad day too Lonely Kitten. Bad days aren't nice are they?

[kim_johnson]

Hey. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling lonely. They are probably trying to help you the best way they know how... It can be pretty frustrating dealing with adult psych services... Trying to get the help you need... Something best avoided if possible...

That being said... Do you think you might be able to access some kind of counselling service or something like that? Where you might be able to build a bit of a relationship with someone so you can talk to them?

I think sometimes it is helpful to have someone who is.. Objective from your life. If that makes sense... Not quite a friend... But someone to help us be objective about our life. I mean... Sometimes people get that from friends... But can take a lot of life to develop those kinds of friendships...

[einsam]

Sorry your psych experience didn't work out. I'm seeing a counselor for my own issues with depression and staying steady in classes, but I don't have anyone else to talk to so the help is limited. After all is said and done, a lot more is said than done...

I certainly don't think loneliness or isolation are problems to be shrugged off at when there are negative effects on physical and mental health.

[Little Jay]

You're not alone sweetie, always here if you need me

[Fuzzybear]