[Steiner of Thule]

I consider them bad so I remove them as much as I can. Unfriend, ignore. I don't want to see them. I don't want to hear them. I want them to go away. Trying to protect myself. Some would consider it to be cold though. To be smiling and playing nice one minute and then turning around and dropping them. To just drop people as if they are nothing to me. I want them to be nothing to me because the little ringer is going off in my head.

They need to be rid of. I have to protect myself. I need to keep myself calm.

[Ruftin]

(((Steiner of Thule))) I can understand your need to edit the people in your life you feel aren't genuine. Remember though that on this site most of us are ill and may not be at our best some days , or we may have family or school obligations, and need time to respond. Be well!!!

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Ruftin

(((Steiner of Thule))) I can understand your need to edit the people in your life you feel aren't genuine. Remember though that on this site most of us are ill and may not be at our best some days , or we may have family or school obligations, and need time to respond. Be well!!!

Everyday seems to be bad though. People changing. I can't stop how fake it all feels. It's not about needing time. It's about not being someone you're not. I get very infuriated by it. I don't know why it makes me so angry. People being fake. I get paranoid about others. I can't really keep it straight.

[Hexagram]

Hey brother, what's up with the anime loop of the shark puppet biting the kid's hand? Don't we at least get a trigger warning?

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Hexagram

Hey brother, what's up with the anime loop of the shark puppet biting the kid's hand? Don't we at least get a trigger warning?

I guess I can change it if it's somehow triggering.

[Steiner of Thule]

I tend to feel autistic when it comes to my dealings of feelings with other people. Everyone asks me if I have autism. It must be true.

[connect.the.stars]

It's only true if you believe it to be true ._.

What I mean is, just because someone tells you something is X, doesn't make it any more of X unless you believed that X was true.

[AzulOscuro]

I'm sorry you feel like that. It's very sad and fustrating to feel these disappointings.
Do you have too high expections towards people you meet?
I tell you bc I tend to idealize people and the problem with idealización is that noone can be compared to an idea. It simply doesn't exist and when you come across the reality, the disappointings aré tremendous.

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by connect.the.stars

It's only true if you believe it to be true ._.

What I mean is, just because someone tells you something is X, doesn't make it any more of X unless you believed that X was true.

It's not that they are bad people. I just consider them bad for me.

I tend to get an idea of people and form my own idea of X

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I'm sorry you feel like that. It's very sad and fustrating to feel these disappointings.
Do you have too high expections towards people you meet?
I tell you bc I tend to idealize people and the problem with idealización is that noone can be compared to an idea. It simply doesn't exist and when you come across the reality, the disappointings aré tremendous.

Perhaps so. Are my expectations too high. Probably. Though I am not sure of where I am setting the bar at first. I'm not sure if it's disappointment or a strong feeling of betrayal. I get an idea of someone and then they betray that idea. It's hard for me to form a new idea of how someone is. Or more like I feel like they are acting fake and lying to themselves and everyone around them.

[niceguy]

I feel sorry for the person you drop, simply because you are unsure how to perceive what they say and do... as someone who has been on that end, it hurts like hell.

I'm all for dropping dead weight, but shouldn't you find out first if they are in fact dead weight?

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by niceguy

I feel sorry for the person you drop, simply because you are unsure how to perceive what they say and do... as someone who has been on that end, it hurts like hell.

I'm all for dropping dead weight, but shouldn't you find out first if they are in fact dead weight?

How could I find that out. I feel bad for some in hindsight usually. Or when they come to me wondering why I removed them. I can't help myself. It tugs and tugs at me until I have to do something. I feel better when I remove others. I'll re-add those I remove and I'll tell myself. "I won't remove these people again." Though that's like when I am sick and drunk and I tell myself "I'll never drink again." I always end up removing these people over and over and I don't know why I do it. I confuse myself. It's a way for me to cope with my emotions.