[kala83]

I am sure everyone has had them those weeks that feel like they never end and the **** that comes with them feels the same damn way. lol well kind of how my week as been for me emotionally and finicaly not so much physically...but a lil taxing mentally although I am noting I am handling things better mentally, cause I am doing a lot of good self care taking my meds, doing work books, making time for self....etc.

lol however losing my phone after simply just using at ohh I would say 8pm last night. And staying up for a least a good 4-5 hours afterwards looking all over town and in my car to find it sucks. But thank goodness for technology being as good as it is. and FB existing I don't come on there so often as I have in the past cause at points I was convinced all FB is a great big drama fest.

but basically this very kind doctor found my phone on the side of the road while he was taking his morning walk he took it apart and looked at the sd card I guess could find me via the internet that way. The phone is seriously in poor shape the front is pretty busted up but it does still turn on and lights up on bottom and top..... and makes noises...it even is getting phone calls....it just does not hang up the phone calls or the ringtones I have it to does not stop. I mad a note of what I had noticed on a posted note since I do not have insurance on the phone I will have to pay for the damages myself. But since it was a more expensive phone..I was on a plan where I had to pay it off and that would happen if I had the phone or not and since I had looked through my car and the parking garage I was before work. as well as retraced my steps from work..to the garage like over a dozen times. by the time this guy found me...and told me it was in bad shape that was kind of the least of my concerns. I would rather the phone be broke then have it be stolen...

but it can be useful and it that was proven to me today!
what ironic was that before I lost the phone I had managed to get I think 3 maybe 4 credit cards for the night at my job....which means I will be getting some nice bonus money on my next pay-check and I hope it keeps up!

but every time I seem to get a credit card and do well at work something close to an hour after I get off work goes crazy....last night it was phone. Night before that on Friday it was getting ANOTHER parking ticket.
but mom is graciously offering to help me out with that...and I am VERY grateful indeed

but aside from my phone being dead as dead could be...nearly mis placing my wallet at nifong wal-mart leaving in cart near cart carrael ....having to go back to that one then go back to the one on clark lane (LOL I ended up going to flippin all three wal-marts tonight cause the one on clark had containers I need to help organize my room but no lids??? lol how or why mystery)on my way to clark lane wal-mart seond time around just barly missed getting hit by an ambulance...I was on 63 high way and was trying to get over to the shoulder....but was several lanes away from it, so had to stop and doing breathing exercises, which did help. ..then have a check engine light on in my car, and I have a thousand million things to do tomorrow NOW that all this loveliness has passed...................... I am surprisingly fine

I am getting a huge crash course in dealing with anxiety of all kind wither its from my general anxiety disorder...or my ptsd. lol but the important thing I keep noting to self is I am coping! and I am doing so better then I have in the past...and I think for me thats a good thing...cause when I don't cope I feel like its gonna land me a straight jacket with a padded room.

SOOO SHORT STORRY SHORT OMGZZ THE BS OF SHITS OF SHITS...BUT i AM HAPPY, PARK AND BLESSED...AND I DON'T FULLY GET WHY...BUT LOL THAT IS OK OTAY!

[Crazy Hitch]

Hang in there (((kala83)))

You are working through some issues here.

But I am glad that you are happy.

[avlady]

i am happy for you that you remained positive through all this!!!!

[kala83]

I know the alternative cause I have travelled down that road often....and I am choosing now that I want the other path at the fork in the road. Cause I know I can have better then what I have in the past...down this road.

[Thunder Bow]

You have Healed, Good Work.