[mrmag]

I have no idea where to put this and i go into detail about some possible triggering things so if easily triggered don't read. Firstly i'm not sure what to think about everything and im not even sure if i dislike what is going on so hear it is, i have a new found thirst for blood whether its my own or someone else , i have recently started self harming again after almost 2 years of quitting so fill this thirst, and i just want more and more as time goes on. not to mention the constant dreams about killing and i feel no remorse no shock to these dreams or thoughts there is a small part of me bagging me to carry out these actions that are in my dreams but i refuse to do such a thing, yet i worry that one part of me will take control and i cant stop it, and what if i enjoy it then willfully do so, I think i should probably check into a mental hospital or something along those lines, but i do wish to avoid that at all costs, my mind is at constant war and im unsure on what to do, i love it and yet hate it. any advice on everything would be so helpful

[Angelique67]

Hi, do you know if there was any trigger or stressful event that precedes these thoughts?

[Thunder Bow]

In your dream you are killing your own emotions. That what cutting does as well. A Therapist can help you deal with your emotions.