[Aviza]

I told him we both needed to get our life in order. He should go stay with his mom, etc. He opted to block me on Facebook, deleted my existence from his on-line profile. And do the one thing he said he never does, post a pic of himself. On top of that he added a female co-worker as a friend, one I had a disagreement with, guess they made up.

Yes I'm blocked but my mom wasn't.

I now realize he's a con. He was out to get what he could get from me, my family, friends, etc. When I cut him off, he blew me off, and ran.

I have my mom saying I don't value my vows, the commitment I make before God. I have my best friend saying, he has 2 embezzlement charges, not just one, and had so many bad checks at banks, he's forbidden from banking. Reason why he abused my accounts, I suppose.

I'm really sick of being used and abused in life, I so want to die right now. People are always telling me what to do, I'm foolish, I gave my heart away, and I don't know if I can ever recover from the damage.

[capricorn1975]

I am so sorry this happened to you. People can be so cruel. I have never been married, but I had an ex gf who tried to ruin me financially and emotionally. I hope things get better for you. Take care.

Sorry for your experience. It will get better.

[emijec]

Originally Posted by Aviza

I told him we both needed to get our life in order. He should go stay with his mom, etc. He opted to block me on Facebook, deleted my existence from his on-line profile. And do the one thing he said he never does, post a pic of himself. On top of that he added a female co-worker as a friend, one I had a disagreement with, guess they made up.

Yes I'm blocked but my mom wasn't.

I now realize he's a con. He was out to get what he could get from me, my family, friends, etc. When I cut him off, he blew me off, and ran.

I have my mom saying I don't value my vows, the commitment I make before God. I have my best friend saying, he has 2 embezzlement charges, not just one, and had so many bad checks at banks, he's forbidden from banking. Reason why he abused my accounts, I suppose.

I'm really sick of being used and abused in life, I so want to die right now. People are always telling me what to do, I'm foolish, I gave my heart away, and I don't know if I can ever recover from the damage.

I've been in two similar situations. You run everything through your mind about what they said, what they didn't say, actions, inactions. good things bad things and you try to make sense of what is real and what is not, have you lost your identity? did they steal it? why didn't they leave before they start hurting you? this constantly runs through my mind every day... but you need to see a therapist and get medication, because it cannot be done alone. even if you go to your local non profit health center, if they dont offer the services they'll find someone who will. that's what I did and what I'm doing right now. If they offer DBT courses, take it. you'll go crazy if you dont reach out for help. and its best if you leave him alone, i tried to communicate with this last one and it only solidified that he didn't give two cents about me and only used me. it makes you feel worse.

just get the help you need and focus on getting it. I hope it gets better for you. it will. at least you'll learn to live again. i dont know if you'll be super happy but you can start working towards acceptance of how content you want to be.

[Aviza]

I am I feel so many things, anger, sadness, just everything. Therapy twice so far, psychiatric next week. I'm really hurting. More than I can explain.

I'm glad you're seeing a doctor, relieved you are finding some help. Someone to talk to. Don't be afraid of meds.

Right now you need to think about you.