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Member Since Nov 2014
Location: United States
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I am used to being depressed. Sometimes I wonder what being happy even feels like, because it's been so long that I've felt happiness for a long period of time. I have always had suicidal ideations also, however never to the point that it worried me or anyone else. I've been having more thoughts rather than just the idea of doing it, such as, ways to do it, ways not to,how, where. I confided in someone I've been friends with for 5 years and his response? "you're scaring me" and I said I'm scared to. I either clean all day or sit on the couch, I quit working and although I know I need to as I have bills to pay, I have no ambition to do so. Changing my environment seems like the only option I have left, but I am currently living with my boyfriend and his family has become my family, along with his daughter. We do not have a healthy relationship, barely a relationship at all really, so I don't know why it is so hard to leave but it is. I'm not sure what else I could do. Any advice?
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you need to find someone, a pro, to talk about your suicidal thoughts. if you don't someone, those life net numbers are great. they listen and you won't scare them. second, if this relationship has a shot you need to try couples counseling. you don't have to start from scratch to change your environment completely, but you need to change the dynamics of your relationship. |
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Pretty eyes, I agree you need to get into counseling. It sounds like you are stuck and need to work things out with a therapist. If you can't get one most hospitals have on call therapists that you can talk to for free as a suicide prevention measure. If you don't feel safe with these thoughts then maybe a short time in a residential clinic might be beneficial. Don't hesitate to talk to a professional. There is no such thing as crying wolf when you think like this. It sounds like these are not your thoughts at all but depression getting the best of you. I will pray for you and wish you the best. tc Let us know how you are doing with this. PC
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