[Yismymindblank12]

I'm done being nice to people who pitiful petty people. I won't have another girl come into my life to say it's all better to leave me later. I just want to get in all kinds of fights with random people. I'm so angry feeling like why the **** was I born emotionally retarded.

I can't empathize with no one. When I do they **** me over as soon it happens. My mother included, my mom didn't teach me how to love myself just crave others to give me what she never gave me and my father taught me how to be timid and stupid and he's not a father figure to me.

If I'm told some petty excuse on how to love myself for good people to come in my life again I will bust their mouth open and break their teeth, because I'm tired of people who lie to me all the time. Quit the promises we both know I'm a lost cause to your standards get the **** out of my life you condescending piece of trash.

Ewwe that girl had the nerve to tell me what I should feel telling me she feels bad for abandoning me I lose my best friend meet her before hoping things are great, but ditches me like everyone else.

You know how ****ing impossible it had been for me to Eben hear words good words told to me. You I hate being told lies. Don't tell me any of that **** when you have skin girl to back up your bold claims if you can't prove me anything except pity then get your deadbeat friend *** out of my life forever.

I hate people like you, your **** is so hot you only got pity just having go to you like a therapist **** you. I don't need anyone you sure didn't need me when you stopped talking randomly because life got busy I didn't get mad then, but I'm infuriated of how insulting you've been. I hope your mom slaps some sense in you because get a ****ing soul before telling me how to live my life. Man she was a ***** earlier.

I don't care how this upsets anyone, no one gave a **** about me. Don't ask me for love when you got none I am too damaged for this ****. Go get married in the perfect burbs let me be single for life trying not kill myself over the guilt I caused on others weighing over my head.

I got deep hellish pain all over my body from years of people like you. You're just like my mother promises and promises never delivers. Man I got raped she calls police to help and tells me she promises to protect me and blames me for my unhappiness after letting my life go through hell. I don't believe in anything except escaping, I'm not what people want I was outcasted for my ****ed up life and still am.

It may not be this week this month or a year or 10 or 20 but someday in the distant future this will blow up. I don't have strength to care if I live or die **** I'm sick of being the one whose used out of convenience and never appreciated. Yeah ***** go **** yourself calling me your best friend after what almost a year before you stopped me you are pathetic.