[passionfruit3]

Felt like killing myself today my therapy team has been really mean to me lately.i tried to get my therapist to talk to my case manager and she said thats between me and my case manager she can't get into it. So she won't help. I cut myself recently and have been cutting and told my psychiatrist in an email her response wa si don't understand use your coping skills like i hadnt spoken english and she was surprised i got kicked out of partial cause she put me in that program to begin with she didnt think id be so much trouble. Its like lately my team doesn't know how to help me or theyve just stopped caring and it makes me so sad it makes want to die.i think i may at some point .

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[Artchic528]

Call a hotline now.

[passionfruit3]

This is my choice I just needed to vent about it cause it's worse keeping it inside.I can't go back to the hospital.

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[passionfruit3]

I'm not killing myself right now anyway and its not selfish it's pitiful and torturous. Its not selfish to want the pain to end its selfish to force people to conform to society church given standards cause they want to compare that death of suicide to cancer as being justifiable and non justifiable. Suicidal are brave and in no way selfish for wanting out.

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[yunomi]

Just like you, i know how it feels when seems like everyone against you. How horrible does it feel, i've been through that. Just vent, even the probs wont disappear soon but it will help you feel slightly better. I hope you dont hurt yourself

[KarenSue]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Suicidal are brave and in no way selfish for wanting out.

Passion, I respectfully disagree.

"Selfish - Caring only for oneself regardless of others"

It is totally selfish. I have had the same thoughts and desires to just end the pain, but I know just how selfish that is. My older brother gave up his life and in so doing, hurt many, many people. I know how it feels to be one who is left behind, and that is torturous to this day for me (it's been over 30 yrs). And the sadness has no hope of ever being relieved because there is no way he can undo it.

My view is even if you don't have any family or friends or acquaintances, you are still being selfish towards people who may need your help in the future. You will never know if you are gone.

I hope you find compassion for yourself and others. I'm so sorry for your current state of pain. You have a chance for it to get better, don't give that chance away.

[Fuzzybear]

I agree with the wish and hope that you find compassion for yourself and others.

I regret that the "treatment team" are being assholes

[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by yunomi

Just like you, i know how it feels when seems like everyone against you. How horrible does it feel, i've been through that. Just vent, even the probs wont disappear soon but it will help you feel slightly better. I hope you dont hurt yourself

I don't want to kill myself but this has become like an addiction for me i don't know how to stop anymore i am at a lost as what to do cause for me hospitals are a place to be judged and were im rather impuslive and tend to hurt myself more to the point were its scary cause i know its not me i want to go to this crisis home but i have to admit to my therapist I'm suicidal to go and if there are not enough rooms ill be sent to a mental hospital so i don't have a lot of options but i felt at peace when i went last time as the doirs weren't locked so i didn't feek the need to act out

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[yunomi]

Addiction? You mean like when you're depressed then you always have a thought like this "oh i hope i can just kill myself"? Well if so, i felt like that too last year, felt like there's no way out but that. I understand that. Well i'm not sure if i have something useful to say for you but you can pm me. Just in case you want to write down your prob to release some negative feelings. I will listen if you want me to.

And for everyone, just stop this useless argument about suicide lol? The decision to do it or not, isnt in someone else hands but the person him/Herself. Argument wont help anything. But well no one gets it till they go through it.

[passionfruit3]

Here here amen

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[passionfruit3]

And i will message you

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[phoenix7]

Ive been to that dark place - I know how it feels to think that that is all there is - I didn't do it because I got help - someone saw I needed help and pointed me in the right direction - oh I didn't want to go - but I did and it helped -

there is a self injury forum that has some great notes about what to do instead of hurting yourself - that helped me too - yes i'm a cutter too

Whether suicide is selfish or not doesn't really matter - the things that matter is that it may end the pain for you but not for those around you - I kow at a certain stage you no longer care about others feelings as you think they will be better off - they won't

you say there is a place you felt helped you - see if you can get in - if you truly feel this way you need help and need to seek it - we can all support you here but you need better help and more of it

and venting - go for it - depression tends to keep us locked inside and quiet- slowly getting sadder and sadder - let it out - rant and rave or cry -

lots of hugs coming your way if ok

P7

[Bill3]

(((((passionfruit3)))))

[phoenix7]

How are you doing?