[Artchic528]

Ever feel like the world doesn't want you around? I feel that way right now. I'm so lonely, I crave interactions so I go online, my only source of interactions these days....but I never make any real friends....not the kind who would share their facebook profiles and whatnot with me...guess I'm just not worth it...no one cares about me...not even my own mother and father care about me. Nobody is trustworthy. No one.

[Raindropvampire]

I'm very sorry you were let down again. I think there are trustworthy people but they are extremely hard to find. But I also feel like a bit of a hypocrite saying that because it's next to impossible for me to trust anyone.

If you ever need to vent I'm here and my PM is always open

[Artchic528]

Originally Posted by Raindropvampire

I'm very sorry you were let down again. I think there are trustworthy people but they are extremely hard to find. But I also feel like a bit of a hypocrite saying that because it's next to impossible for me to trust anyone.

If you ever need to vent I'm here and my PM is always open

Thank you Raindrop, for those kind words....

[Crazy Hitch]

Trust is a very difficult thing sometimes ... try not to let the actions of others influence how you feel about everyone ... there are some good people out there

[Artchic528]

Why bother trusting anyone? All people do is bring me misery and disappointment. Time and time again. I don't see any reason to trust anyone anymore.

[Crazy Hitch]

Yeah well that's just a defence mechanism you've built in there so you don't get hurt again.

Getting hurt sucks right!?

[Artchic528]

Yes. A million times yes. I'm not getting hurt ever again.

[Crazy Hitch]

Getting hurt sucks. Truly sucks.

Don't give up all hope, is what I'm saying.

[avlady]

yes.hope is what you're missing, then you can have joy

[barbella]

I think trust has to be earned. It is difficult to find trustworthy people so you need to go slowly to see if they can actually earn your trust. I am not sure where to go to find trustworthy people but I do think they are out there. I am sorry your trust has been so badly shaken and I am sorry about your parents, too.

[Artchic528]

*sigh* I can't seem to find any trust worthy people no matter how hard I look.

I think online is a lucky dip, yes there will be genuine trustworthy people on these sites but unlike real life you only see what they want you to. The visual clues are missing, such as facial expression & body language.

You have written about social anxiety so this may be a challenge to you, but maybe trying more face to face interaction might be helpful - not necessarily to date but to make more friends. A lot of people meet through friends of friends so it could lead to something more but most of all it would widen your social support system.

[Monarch Butterfly]

Artchic, I can relate. I'm sorry to hear about you're trust issues.

I have trust issues too. Parents and others treated me like garbage. I have a double brick wall as a defende mechanism. I started therapy six months ago. Maybe my wall will start to fall.

Trusting people was my biggest downfall. Don't do it. Especially a therapist. They just pretend to like you when they really don't (my case). It's hard to shut everyone out but it is possible. Self preservation.