[PianogirlPlays]

Offered my contact information to another lady since it seemed we had so much in common and she must have had me mixed up with someone else because she declined expressing some sort of past history we didn't have. I was shocked!we were at a Weight Watchers meeting and we were from the same area but had never met before. I never offer my information to anyone so it was a big brave act for me.
I had wanted to see my son and his family and suggested some short and simple ways and it didn't happen although the door was still open. We are having them to dinner in a few days but this was weeks ago and I didn't speak up that I was hoping to see them before then. So I am suffering for being upset with myself that it didn't happen and now I need to get my thinking turned around and enjoy that the fact that we will see them and I can't change the past. Getting together has been challenging and the hurts are in there.
Tried to contact a good friend and even though I have been really good about supporting her she hasn't gotten back at a time when I really needed her.
I feel a lot of pain because everything goes inwards. I really hurt!

[Ceridwen18]

It's hard when you put yourself out there and it doesn't work out. Even worse when it happens a few times in quick succession. This is something I have struggled with also, and because it has been painful, has stopped me initiating new friendships. Now I wait for others to give me a clear sign that they are interested, then I'm happy to act.
I too have friends that I have supported that haven't been able to do the same, and I have learned to accept that and keep the friendship at a more surface level. I do have a friend or two that never turn their backs on me, and thinking about them when I am hurt, even if for whatever reason I can't see them (live far away) helps me deal with other setbacks.
I'm sorry, I don't really have any advice for you, just wanted to let you know I understand.
I write to let my feelings out. Is there anything you can do to not let the pain build inside you?

[PianogirlPlays]

At least a couple of things got better. I got in touch with my friend and she had not seen my email so now we are in contact. I reviewed the picture and words that my daughter had written and found it was really okay. I could see where she was coming from. The Weight Watchers meeting event is still painful and unsettled. It has affected my whole program and inner life. I am trying to work on it though by writing and will be talking tomorrow with my counselor who has been out of town for a couple of weeks. Really missed having her to talk with. I think it will help.

[Ceridwen18]

I'm really glad some of those things have worked out positively. I hope you find some peace with this issue after a session with your T.
Hugs