I am very worried. I volunteer. And I told my supervisor I wanted to take a month off. I actually said I wanted to take a break from volunteering, and check in in a month. She was fine with that. But I changed my mind today, and want to continue volunteering for now. I like it for the most part. And I think it's a good thing to have in my life. Before, when I wanted to take some time off, I had been triggered the last time i'd volunteered, because my supervisor and the director teased me. I don't like being teased and made fun of. And even though it was just silly, I was triggered by it.

When I went in today, I enjoyed volunteering, and it made me realize, I can do this. I want to do this. I told my supervisor that I changed my mind and want to stay. Before she could say anything, I apologized for going back and forth. She said I'd done that before and i think she was trying to say she needs me to be solid. I did do that before, but within a different area of the volunteering, and for different reasons. I've been volunteering here for 6 months, and for the most part, have enjoyed it (even though it's boring sometimes) and showed up on time and am reliable.

I had a freakout today about it though, when I got home. I was like, REALLY worried that something was wrong with me for having changed my mind. I had to call my counselor. I am still not sure what to say to my supervisor. Because she noticed i felt put on the spot. And said we can talk about it later.

I am still quite worried because I don't know what to say to my supervisor.

I think I'm blowing this out of proportion maybe?

Can someone please help me calm down or help me see this in perspective? Is something wrong with me for changing my mind?

[*Laurie*]

Hi starrysky Nothing is wrong with you for changing your mind! In fact, I give you credit for realizing that you made a decision that didn't work for you and saying so. That's a strength, not a weakness.

[Sunflower123]

It's ok to change your mind and the fact that you did and followed through with it shows growth on your part. Kudos.

Thank you so much Jennifer and Laurie. I was so worried because of the way she responded when I apologized. Like "Yeah, you ARE doing something wrong." She didn't say that specifically though.

My mom said it wasn't a big deal either, and she was like, f*** your supervisor, maybe it's her issue, and not you.

I think it's okay to feedback you feel uncomfortable being teased too if you haven't already.