[starlion28]

So I've never posted on something like this before, but I've come to a place where I don't think I can convey to the people I love what is going on with me.

I graduated a semester early from college in December. I went to a huge school and had so many friends/things to do at all times. At the end I felt sad but ready for the future. I started graduate school immediately in a new city after graduating while all my friends were still at school. I cried every single day in the beginning, obsessively checking up on my friends and wishing I could just be back at the place I felt so comfortable. I thought once they graduated too and I started to assimilate into post grad life, things would improve but they have not at all.

I have never felt so low in my life and I cannot pinpoint what the emotion is. My friends from home and school are moving all over the country. They are so excited and ready for challenges like I once was I have financial support despite being unable to work but I still feel completely useless as all my friends are able to support themselves already by working. The path I am taking has amazing job placement and I am certain I will get to the same place when I finish (this coming spring), but I am scared the feelings I have now will not go away.

I love what I am learning in school and am getting by grade-wise but just feel like giving up every day. I even have a solid group of friends, a guy I am talking to, and my family lives close. No matter what amazing things I have, I have this extreme fear I will never be happy. I wake up every day sad wondering why I can't just liven up and be happy. It's not even that I miss college that much but I am scared I will never be comfortable for one second again because life is moving so fast.

It's almost like I'm mad at myself for STILL missing college. It's been so many months and I can't believe how pathetic I am being, wanting to be so stagnant. All of my friends from school say they miss it but they are too caught up with their cool corporate lives to give it a second thought while I am reading textbooks all day.

If anyone can relate to this or offer any advice please let me know. Please don't say "That's life grow up" because I say this to myself every day and it does not help.

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC. I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. Have you considered therapy? Sending big hugs.

[Thunder Bow]

Be proud, and do not compare yourself to others. The only path after college is Your Path. Seek counseling if you feel overly depressed.

[MickeyCheeky]

Perhaps you can try to keep yourself busy; that way you'll have less time to think about that. I'm sure those feeling will pass, sooner or later..

[Fuzzybear]