[Orion XXV]

It's been a really long and wild year for me.

New job, lost 25 lbs and counting, enjoyed discovering new things and revisiting some older things, saw a best friend I've known since I was 11... you know, it sounds great and it is. There's just this feeling of being completely out of control and in need of rest. I do suffer from depression and PTSD, but there comes times where I just can't get myself to do anything or I feel like my battery is constantly running and I can't sit... typical life.

A part of me feels like no matter what I do, I still fall short somewhere. As if I can't get to the point in life I want to be at. I would like to have an apartment and a partner who can help share that with me. Since my boyfriend got evicted and blew his credit, it's like the idea of financially sharing a home could be in the long run now. I love him... I help him and I just feel like I never gain the full appreciation.

I think a lot of people here can relate to feeling out of control and just worn out. A sense of not being sure and almost being afraid of the potential future. Being frustrated and trying to be on top of everything but with no energy and time... I guess in the end, a good jump start begins with one step at a time, no?

[MickeyCheeky]

You're right, one step at the time. You're already making progress, so give yourself a pat on the back. I understand your feelings, but please keep working on it.