[Aviza]

This is hard. I love him, but I don't want to live down there, and I don't want him to give up farming. His house and the barn are in bad shape. I like being near things like grocery stores clothing stores, etc. Okay there is a small gricery store in a nearby town.

He says he will move up here. Has a job interview Friday. Also says he can live in his house utilities only for a year per agreement with his cousins who are buying it. They got it out of foreclosure. Now says he may see about buying it back from them. A friend of his would loan him the money, a bank won't credit isn't good enough for a mortgage.

Mixed messages!!! It's kind of my fault though. I worry about him giving up his profession farming to work full time in a factory. He would have more money, not spending it on buying animals food. But still. I do not want to live in that house, too much work is needed and I'm not rich by any means.

He's wavering and I'm trying to plan but it's hard to plan with someone changing their mind every other day. I feel like we may reach a breaking point.

[Aviza]

He's looking into jobs helping farmers work their large farms up here. I like that better.