How are you coping today?

Frustrated because I just tried to renew my health insurance online and the site is totally useless!

Doing ok today,went to see my mum and to the cafe for a drink and a snack.Came home and slept,then ate,then did some chores.I am resting now.I think I coped well today.

today someone came out to fix my tumble drier. I am so glad it's fixed, it's been broken for 2 days (and seeing as I rely on it, it was the longest 2 days of my life).

I started a new creative writing peace today (which will probably end up forgotten about like all the others)

but I love the main character. she's an 8 year old girl that bites things.

had a pretty disgusting dinner, it was all I could do not to throw up on my plate

I also found an online stream for my hospital radio station. it seems they've gotten with the times now and got one (yay)

I am now listening to atlantis

showered today which has done absolutely nothing to improve my mood (in fact made it worse, and made me feel dirty)

one funny thing about the shower is that it nearly flooded the bathroom. I find that funny anyway. my 4 year old mind doesn't seem to apreciate the complications it could have caused if it had got through to the bedroom

I am still feeling a little sick from yesterday's dinner (it was disgusting) I will never use that brand again.

no sleep.

today my friend sophie was meant to deliver me some doctor pepper, now it's not coming until tomorrow night. hope I have enough fiz to last me today (I go through it like a hungry dog goes through dog food)

think today I'm going to do some creative writing and listen to music. nothing special going on

Thank you Marylin,it has been a while since I posted.My husband died from heart failure.He was 70,& yes he had been sick for several months but refused to get medical help.I was with him when he had the heart attack & holding his hand when he passed.We kept him on life support for 10 days.When I saw there was no hope we gave him up.I spent 10 days & 8 nights in ICU with him,Also had a sister with cancer there & a brother with gall bladder infection.All 3 at the same hospital at the same time.The ordeal left me weak & my BP is high also have Afib.Then after his funeral i had to go back to take care of my 96 yr old mom.My life is hectic,I dont eat right,no rest I even sleep in my clothes in the recliner.Its winter I am cold and miserable.I miss my husband,even if i have family around me.I think about death a lot & have panic attacks once in a while, which make my BP go up.Sorry for the long post but I just need someone to talk to tonight.I really feel beaten,the last 2 months have been the worst time of my life.

Hello Loulou2014. I am so sorry you are suffering. No wonder you feel beaten...you've been having a terrible time. I am so sorry that your husband died. May he rest in peace. Your husband was fortunate to have such a devoted and loving wife by his side through his illness and final moments. Do you have any support? Someone close to speak with? Or a therapist for some grief counseling? Please know that I am very sorry for your pain and I wish you peace

I am sorry to hear your sad story.You certainly have a lot on your shoulders.Looking after your mother who is 92 is hard work and especially as you are not well yourself.Your heart condition won't be helped by all the stress you are under.My mother is 87 and cannot walk,she needs help to eat and use the bathroom,she is almost blind.Panic attacks aren't much fun either.You must try and eat well and get proper rest in your bed so you can sleep well too.

I am coping well I think,I am slightly depressed,thinking of the future.

mostly a wasted day (again)

been feeling anxious, agitated, a little suicidal and upset over **** all

well, truth be told, a lot of it's probably to do with the fact I have a new alter who is taking over my ****ing life

and she's.... blah. I don't like her

I did all I could to distract myself from bad feelings and I still felt bad,not a happy day at all.

Great. I have loads to do this week, and today I got up early and got a lot done.

all I know is that I'm feeling sad.

it's been a difficult week with lots of alters taking over. not even had much time to myself (which explains my absence from the forum)

I am depressed and I feel that the system is against me,if I wanted to train so I could eventually get work they wouldn't help me to do so,they would cut my money and let me starve.

I am coping pretty well today. I haven’t been crabby or moody at all today. I am nervous about the weather but I haven’t been letting my anxiety control me.

I don’t know, I’m tired, slept bad last night, I’m sad and being sleepy doesn’t help. Looking forward to better rest tonight.

Coped well today and have been coping fairly well lately. I'm optimistic.

I am doing ok,better than the last few days.So that is good!

not really felt anything todag

going through the motions I guess

someone's gotta do it

I lost control and overate again today,shucks!

feel like crap and certainly won't be doing much.

I am having takeout tonight though

More eating foods that I shouldn't today so that is coping badly....hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Ok took a long rest and nap after getting out to a meetup group and shopping for groceries.

So far, not good because this obsession is controlling me, and has already messed up today.

the takeaway was nice (and big!)

we had pizza, garlic bread (2 helpings), and chicken wings

didn't do much afterwards- average night of no sleep and too many thoughts

watched the curse of the mitus box today and recorded some other movies for later

but again, not doing anything and just going through the motions

feel pretty ****ing depressed

I had a rest day today,the only chores that I did was laundry,two loads and the second one is drying now.