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#1
May 12, 2018, 03:34 AM
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Yesterday was my b-day. I work from 3pm-1am so I started my birthday at work. No biggie, here's the story.
It's May 10, 11:50pm or so when I see an internal message on my computer stating that someone has their b-day in 10 minutes and that everyone should clap at 12.00 for him. Naturally, I thought they somehow figure out my DoB (not that hard to do) and had this information about me. It's 12am and they play this song that, from my experience, it is associated with b-days, I kind of hyperventilate for the first time in a long time. For a millisecond, I thought they had played this song for me and were about to reach me to congratulate me until I saw the actual holder of that crown. One of the bosses. Of course. They cheer him up and sing to him and shake his hand. Kudos to him for sure. I like the guy. But I cannot describe how incredible small I felt in that moment. I was thinking in telling my coworkers that we should do something for my b-day, trying to engage a bit more... But I just froze. I couldn't say anything after that moment of inner disappointment, from deep embarrassment. I hardly ever feel embarrassed and that's why I felt so KO at the moment. I know this may be a stupid story but I just want to take this off my chest, as I'm recovering from that punch yet. It made me... I don't know, but I cried for the first time in a looong time when I got home. Felt as left behind. Like rubbish you toss on the floor because it isn't even worth a can. Thank you for giving me this space to leave my thoughts, now I'll never think about it again. And "move on". But it did hurt. –Oh! So you are human, lowpoint!
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I feel nothing, everything and a million of painful in-betweens. “We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe.” -J.W. Goethe |
 Bill3, MickeyCheeky, mote.of.soul, orangyred, Turtle_Rider
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#2
May 12, 2018, 03:39 AM
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What was I thinking anyways? Just thinking about those 10 minutes in which I had this idea of them wanting to congratulate me... How would I react?
That they would see me as a human being, my emotional needs... Lol, just pathetic, dude. Please remove yourself from existence.
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I feel nothing, everything and a million of painful in-betweens. “We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe.” -J.W. Goethe |
| Bill3, Turtle_Rider
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#3
May 12, 2018, 03:45 AM
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The worst part is that I created this account about a year ago and I don't see any improvement. Perhaps I'm worst than before and a disease to my co-workers. Damn.
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I feel nothing, everything and a million of painful in-betweens. “We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe.” -J.W. Goethe |
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#4
May 12, 2018, 04:16 AM
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 I'm so sorry. It's understandable that you'd feel upset/disappointed.
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#5
May 12, 2018, 04:47 AM
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Awww. I would have had the exact same reaction.
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I've decided that I don't want a diagnosis anymore. 
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#6
May 12, 2018, 05:07 AM
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My gosh, I think I would've cried too. Wow. It's not a stupid story.
Happy Birthday to you lowpoint. It was despite the setback, still your special day as well. Big Happy Birthday to you. |
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#7
May 13, 2018, 12:56 PM
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That sucks. Big time. I am sorry. I was slighted at work in a similar way and I honestly didn’t get over it. Very painful. Hugs
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#8
May 23, 2018, 04:14 AM
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... Sorry guys.
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I feel nothing, everything and a million of painful in-betweens. “We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe.” -J.W. Goethe |
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#9
May 23, 2018, 08:32 AM
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Happy belated birthday. Don't feel bad, I would've same reaction too.
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#10
May 23, 2018, 09:11 AM
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Quote:
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
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Jun 08, 2018, 12:43 PM
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Aw.. I'm so sorry! Happy belated birthday
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Jun 08, 2018, 06:11 PM
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Happy Belated Birthday!
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