Losing your reserve of motivation

When I was younger I had a reserve of motivation to attempt anything...and I don't anymore. It scares me because I felt that with my parents. I could never understand how my mom never wanted to do anything over a certain age... but I feel like that now.

- job opportunities... I just don't have the patience or motivation to write a resume or put up with interviewing. Been there, done that.

- I don't want to move. I been there... done that.

When I was younger I had motivation and hope. It was the reserve of hope that fueled motivation. What if I succeeded? I could believe that when I got there, things would be better. But history has shown me that anything I want to pursue isn't going to work out the way I think it will and rarely will it make anything better.

- New job, new problems.
- New home, new problems.
- New pet, new problems.
- Travel? For what, nothing is all that great.

I mean I wondered if this was depression but it isn't.. it is simply experience. So what does seem attractive? Doing nothing. At least there won't be new problems.

How do regain motivation and hope? Or do I?