[Silly Wizard]

Recently a friend went into some detail about how she enjoyed horror movies. I was left unusually disturbed by her enthusiastic interest, not because I find such movies gross or scary, but because I can’t cope with the fact she can gleefully watch people die in horrific ways. This disturbance branched out to any and all forms of fictional violence, to the point I have completely stopped partaking in any movies, games, and literature that have anything to do with violence and death.

I simply find it morbid that people can derive enjoyment from watching others being brutally killed and tortured. I understand it’s all made up, but that almost makes it worse, as people often complain about violence in real life but have no issue watching or creating fictional scenarios containing rampant death and suffering. I am almost the opposite, where I can reconcile real life homicides and armed conflicts because they’re treated as such horrible acts should be.

Another interesting, disturbing side note is that I have several

Possible trigger:

sexual fetishes that revolve around violence and torture.

I absolutely hate them and refuse to indulge at all, but they’re still always there, and I can’t get over them.

I understand this is kind of a stupid problem, but it’s just another symptom of some weird issues I’m having, and it still greatly disturbs me and I am losing some of the few friends I have over it.