[shoez]

I am constantly thinking and thinking and thinking. I am constantly on the edge.

Will I lose my job
Will I lose my relationship
Will I ever figure out my dreams
Will this work out

and in conjunction to that-
just thinking of all the horrible things that could happen and how every decision I make is just bathing in anxiety and whether I should, whether it is what I want, What do I want, am I upset, should I be upset........
ETC ETC ETC

It is destroying me!

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, shoez I know what you mean. It's pretty common to people who have depression or anxiety. I'm sure many can relate to what you wrote. I think it would be a good idea, every time these thougths come up, to find some distractions and try to think of something else. I also think it would be good to work on your own self-esteem, what you're feeling right now may be caused by that. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. Please don't give up. Hopefully this feeling will pass at some point. Things won't stay like this forever. Feel free to PM me anytime. Sending many hugs to you

[shoez]

Thank you so much, It is quite infuriating. I wish I could say I just have a bad self esteem, but you want to know the crazy part- I feel like I could do so much better, I feel like I'm capable of so much more and I want to do it--------but then I freeze. OMG what if this means that and if that means that than this means this!

Its like I am disconnected from myself. I don't think I'm a bad person, I don't think I'm that stupid...but I don't know where I need to channel anything. I don't have any sense with it, its like stumbling around, and around, and around.

I feel like my overthinking is a symptom of something that might be simple and easy to fix, but Im too scared and I don't know how.

Ok its my childhood---cool I know that, but now what? right?

im making myself dizzy.

Sadly, I cant afford therapy....Its great for me and often, I find myself having progress when I am in therapy....but I cant afford. :\

Thank you for the support sorry for flooding like a nut job

[Skeezyks]

Here are links to 9 articles, from PC's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

When Ruminating Becomes a Problem

Why Ruminating is Unhealthy and How to Stop

8 Tips to Help Stop Ruminating

5 Mindful Treatments for Rumination

Catastrophic Thinking: When Your Mind Clings to Worst-Case Scenarios

https://psychcentral.com/blog/naviga...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/naviga...inking-part-3/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/weigh...from-yourself/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...like-yourself/

My best wishes to you...

[sarahsweets]

Our minds can be like getting lost in a bad neighborhood.