So so sorry.

I wore jog pants because
They were easy to
Take on and off.
The life style questions.
Everyone says I
Look like I am intelligent.
On paper I am intelligent.
Was your prejudice
Based on my clothing?

Sorry I was depressed
And in a bad way.
I do regret writing it.
I should have not
Been so forthright.
I should only have
Mentioned the crisps comment.
That was out of order.
It was wrong
To make an official complaint.

I was like coffee.
I was not over weight
I was a twelve to fourteen.
You were following
The guidelines and
Doing your job.

Whether wearing your finest clothes, your birthday suit or sweat pants, underneath these you are the same person. I live that every day. Some of the tops of my t-shirts are heavily frayed, some of shirts have permanent stains, and some of my pains are frayed on the bottom cuff. If I’m judged of my clothes, I minimize it because I know the real me, however how broken, encases the body within.

I was not taking a stand
Or opposing the machine.
I was in a messed up place.
And there was no
Need to write officially.
I was attending the
Gym at the time
And was getting quite taut.
It was one comment
That irked me I'll admit. Sorry.
And I was so ashamed
When I was at home
And thought back and
I wished I had never done it.
I was very stressed out.
If I was in a good place
I never would have done it.
Sorry just does not
Seem to cut it.
And I take the blame
Because I am to blame
For the after math.

I was just trialling out
Taking different doses
Of my one lone tablet.
I was not doing anything
Else aside from a few lagers
On an evening.
That was the wrong word
And I should not
Have admitted it if
I was not stressed
Up to my 5foot7 height.

I'm so sorry, Balthascar810 You write very well. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope writing here helps a bit. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to yu