[TishaBuv]

Feeling sad about the people who no longer speak to me; my son, my sister, my ‘friend’ C. The bad is all on them. It happened as it did and there’s no changing it. You can’t make someone care and love you when they don’t.

The biggest devastation is my son. I had a lifetime of pure love with him before he got tangled up with his now wife. Now he’s alienated himself. He wasn’t even going to wish me a happy birthday. I was getting very upset about that and my h texted him and asked him to at least text me birthday wishes, which he did.

[TishaBuv]

I’m fine out and about. It’s in my home, some of the close relationships, where I struggle. I feel like the worst has been brought out in me for far too long in a specific situation and there’s no escaping it. I can’t change and neither can he. I’m terrified to leave. Where do I think I’m going? I’d just be alone. Total panic attack. Not coping in healthy ways TBH.

[Marylin]

Not coping too well today but getting through it I suppose.
Wanting to change the last few days and have a different election result.
worried about the future , and feeling powerless.

[Marylin]

I forced myself to be more positive since I posted the last post above.
I got the washing up done, put it away and cleaned the kitchen.
Then I wrapped Christmas presents for my mum and my niece.
Had dinner and a shower and painted my nails.
Tomorrow I am meeting my niece to see a film and eat at restaurant.
I guess I coped quite well today in the end!

[*Beth*]

I'm sorry, TishaBuv. I know, all too well, the pain of estrangement. My oldest child, my daughter, were as close as a mom and daughter could be. We were definitely mother and daughter, but we were also best friends. We always had a great time together - until she married. Her husband (who comes from a mess of a family) worked on her bit by bit, until she refused to communicate with me at all. It's been over a year and I feel the pain inside my soul. Of everything in life, I never even considered estrangement from one of my children.

How am I coping today?...the usual. Trying to remember to breathe and to take it moment by moment. And ask the universe for help.

I met with my job counselor at the Dislocated Workers Program today for the first time. I signed a bunch of paperwork. It was weird that he will keep "case notes" on my journey towards finding a job. I feel a little insecure about that.

He tried to sympathize with me, telling me he was out of work for 2 years. But he had a hefty severance check from his layoff of his 20 year job, a wife who works full-time and a paid off mortgage. So, his situation is not close to mine at all. But he's who I have been matched to. He's brand new in his role there as a job counselor so my god, I hope this goes well.

He had me take some self-assessments. I guess once I land a full-time job, I have to send him my first paycheck stub, and keep in touch with him once a month minimum for the first year of the job. That makes me feel like I'll be on work release from prison but I guess that's how Goodwill Easter-Seals set up the program. I just feel awkward about that because I joined this program to get help finding a job. I didn't realize I would be required to check in once a month during my job search, and for a year after I get my first job. I may choose to drop out of this program. I'll see how it goes.

I'm irritated that I have to re-apply for SNAP food benefits again. I was denied b/c my grad school financial aid refund is counted as "income" despite the fact that I'm not working. I will just resubmit it and see what happens. Will probably be 3 weeks before I get an answer from the county, since Christmas is next week.

I can start calling the unemployment line next week on Mondays and Tuesdays for the previous week of not working. Hopefully, it will help me get through the next 6 weeks while I try to find temp work again, and continue applying for full-time jobs.

Originally Posted by StreetcarBlanche

I met with my job counselor at the Dislocated Workers Program today for the first time. I signed a bunch of paperwork. It was weird that he will keep "case notes" on my journey towards finding a job. I feel a little insecure about that.

He tried to sympathize with me, telling me he was out of work for 2 years. But he had a hefty severance check from his layoff of his 20 year job, a wife who works full-time and a paid off mortgage. So, his situation is not close to mine at all. But he's who I have been matched to. He's brand new in his role there as a job counselor so my god, I hope this goes well.

He had me take some self-assessments. I guess once I land a full-time job, I have to send him my first paycheck stub, and keep in touch with him once a month minimum for the first year of the job. That makes me feel like I'll be on work release from prison but I guess that's how Goodwill Easter-Seals set up the program. I just feel awkward about that because I joined this program to get help finding a job. I didn't realize I would be required to check in once a month during my job search, and for a year after I get my first job. I may choose to drop out of this program. I'll see how it goes.

I'm irritated that I have to re-apply for SNAP food benefits again. I was denied b/c my grad school financial aid refund is counted as "income" despite the fact that I'm not working. I will just resubmit it and see what happens. Will probably be 3 weeks before I get an answer from the county, since Christmas is next week.

I can start calling the unemployment line next week on Mondays and Tuesdays for the previous week of not working. Hopefully, it will help me get through the next 6 weeks while I try to find temp work again, and continue applying for full-time jobs.

what do you work at?

[atisketatasket]

New thread by request.

[seesaw]

Thanks @atisketatasket!

I am coping well today.

Originally Posted by LonelyMan

what do you work at?

That's not public information and you should not ask personal questions like that.

[Discombobulated]

Did not do so well today. I am getting stressed and should work on acceptance of some stuff.

[WovenGalaxy]

I did not sleep well last night. I was up ruminating and googling things. Then I had a Dr.'s appt today at 8am. Without divulging my health info, she's going to refer me to a specialist and I'm glad. Nervous. But also relieved. Anyway, I'm just resting today.

[TishaBuv]

Oops, I didn’t realize I started this thread. . Hugs to all!

My day was horrendous:

-car was towed
-told I'm ineligible for unemployment
-car payment and car insurance payment deducted so I have no money
-my SNAP application was denied b/c they count my grad school refund as income
-my roommate's sister wants me out by February 1st
-I don't have a temp job for January so no way to pay rent and no one to borrow rent from and don't qualify for emergency rent assistance b/c I have a roommate

[Marylin]

I coped really well today. I met up with my niece and we loved the film and enjoyed a meal at the restaurant.
Her company is fantastic, her love for me makes me feel safe and secure, I was in a really good mood being with her and
I was not depressed.

[seesaw]

I'm just trying to get through tomorrow and meet my deadlines then the next two weeks should be a lot easier.