How are you coping today? #2 1/2

A community thread.

I’m coping ok today but I think as a result of being so stressed these past few days I made myself physically sick. I don’t feel very good right now. This isn’t the first time this has happened either. I think my Pdoc doctor getting frustrated yesterday kind of did it for me.

I think that stress is causing me physical health problem as well! So I understand how you feel.

i'm basically NOT - haven't been for a while now

I am pretty good because I finally slept.

I'm coping fine today. I was hanging out with my friend and didn't really feel up to it, plus it's cold out, and they understood.

While visiting my mother in her nursing home, I asked the recreational therapist to give me information about how she got her license. Definitely a career I could see myself doing with pediatrics (helping kids build social skills). The degree program isn't in my city so I'd have to move a few hours away which is not ideal. I'd have to see if I could get my Dislocated Worker to approve a tuition grant vs. financial aid, for the courses I'd need to take to get my license. The rec. therapist gave me her contact info so I will touch base with her again after Christmas. The Masters program I'm in now has zero practical application for me since I'm not in a corporate career like 99% of my classmates. So, let's see what happens. May not lead anywhere but it may.

I feel really bad today. I was yelled at by a district manager and stores manager who screw up on my order and I end up being rip off at my favorite store and when I came home I was yelled at by my brother because my sister was very nosy and blab my business to our brother who call !e horrible names. I felt like I was being gang up on all day.

I'm having a lot of anxiety visiting my parents around food and weight loss right now. I have a lot of food related anxiety and they greatly exacerbate it because they will never help me out by at least planning WHEN we will eat dinner. My meals are very regulated and it's necessary for me to do so to manage my PTSD and anxiety - since I grew up with starvation and then an eating disorder. I have explained this to them, and they do try to accommodate me but usually it's when I'm on my last straw and have to say very forcefully, WE HAVE TO EAT NOW. I know I can eat without them, of course, and sometimes I do, but I really like to eat as a family. As usual, it's also a problem of the fact that neither of them has any metabolism. I am active and go running many days of the week, and my metabolism is active. I asked my mom what kind of exercise she's getting and she said she's getting about 3000 steps a day. That's the equivalent of nothing. That's walking around the house to get dressed and make breakfast, walking to the bathroom at work, and walking to and from the car. I'm not knocking her, I'm just saying, she doesn't get very hungry because she doesn't do anything that would make her hungry. And then the problem is that they snack between meals and I do not. It doesn't work for managing my weight and my PTSD/anxiety to snack like they do. I just wish they would respect this boundary a little more because they have seen me have panic attacks before when we are HOURS late to having a meal because they screw around getting ready or whatever.

Anyways: I'm feeling anxious.

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

Horribly today. I'm trying to watch movie that make me feel better.

my christmas day wasn't anything to really write home about.

I was alone for all of it, I didn't get what I wanted (which was a given even before the day had started, I just didn't want to admit it), plus: my turkey dinner was less than average

I am still feeling depressed today though, despite taking down the christmas tree. I don't know why it's such a big thing for me... when I take down the tree I get so emotional

plus side to christmas is that I wasn't in much pain

sat quite comfortably in my chair yesterday watching the muppet christmas carol

Horrible. My sister and her friend was so rude to me today.

I feel really horrible today. I feel like everyone is taking their anger out on me.

I felt really horrible and hurt because someone I used to listen to yell at me on her live chat when she ask her viewer to know if her video was messing up. I was very hurt. She did apologize in the comment but I don't believe her.

despite my fears about Coronavirus, I went out and did what I needed to do today.

it was extremely busy though so had to wear my ear defenders (t's a weird concept, walking down the street with ear defenders on, but their we go) if it works.

lots of pushing and shoving

and annoying kids

and I had fibro pain too

I was honestly glad to get home and relax.

I feel really horrible today. I woke up feeling depressed and having anxiety attack from all the emotional abuse I gone through.

2/1/20- Today was stressful- I felt so overwhelm that i realized that i am over working myself

I feel like my emotions have been on a roller coaster today.

I'm feeling better today. It been awhile since I felt better.