How are you coping today? #3

I'm trying to problem solve tonight about things that have me worried. But I think I will take a break and try to relax for a while.

Coping better today. All week I was terrified..........it was like a lion was in the room......I could not stop being afraid

I understand very well. I hope it get better for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats o.k. that you are just getting by...I think most of us feel that way. I certainly do...I am having a difficult time sometimes. Its hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At times, my sadness and anxious thoughts about a family member who has been kicked out again takes hold and overwhelms me. I paid to put them in a hotel for a week so at least they will not be homeless for the holidays. Will be looking for a longer term place today but that they don't see that they contributed to the incident that led to their being kicked out makes it harder to help them. It is a problem that I have been dealing with for years. So far, the only good that I see from all of it is that I am dealing with it better than before. I pray all the time about it. That helps.

I'm trying to relax this morning by doing some cooking. But I don't think it's helping. I'm worried that the dish I made is unhealthy. But I'm trying to use up what I have. I am also drinking a frappuccino. Those help me cope. Later I will play a game. Or maybe read.

I am tired today after doing so many chores yesterday.I feel like I need a whole days rest,do the food shop tomorrow,resume chores on wednesday.
I do have to sort the bins and recycling today and put them out for the bin men to collect tomorrow morning.

I’m coping well today. I’m a bit unmotivated and avoiding a couple things, but everyday can’t be positive.

I am up at 1am again I went to bed at 10pm couldn't make it more than 3 hours without waking and now I don't think I can get back to sleep yet.
I am also upset cos I had chicken dippers from MacDonald's last night and I forgot sauces have sugar and I ate barbeque dip, it sent my sugars up, that's so stupid of me!

I really don't want to be awake at this time of night it makes it harder to get back to sleep in bed I will probably sleep again this morning on the sofa and get stiff and uncomfortable and wake around 5am and go upstairs to bed again and not be able to sleep and be uncomfortably awake until the morning. I hate when I have nights like this, really hate it.

I feel like eating too and you should not eat at night !It is so frustrating.

I am not coping when this happens.

I finally got back to bed and got more sleep.Up again now it's 6.14am.I got to occupy myself until 10am when I am going out to collect my money and do a food shop at the
grocery store,I couldn't get an online delivery slot.I am not exact;y brimming with energy but I gotta get this shopping done.That is if I want to have enough food over xmas.

I'm coping well this morning. I am having coffee and emailing friends. It's nice to reach out to people.

Today was a good day,I got my xmas food shop done,I didn't expect it to be easy I thought there would be crowds in the food hall,that it would take ages and I would get exhausted but no it was plain sailing and I got into town early and got it done in an hour and got home.When home I rested,packed it all away.I put the flowers in a vase and set them on my small pine table next to the xmas tree,it looks nice and festive.Then I ordered MacDonalds to be delivered and ate it,I've been messaging my niece and sister and chatting.I did well today and I feel ok.

I’m coping well but my anxiety is almost unbearable and my depression is blah. Not sure what’s going on except I’m very tired and I think I need to take my night meds early. I really want to go look at Christmas light tonight so I’m trying to hold off on going to bed.

I am coping to the best of my abilities. I was diagnosed with PTSD today, officially. I already knew I had the symptoms for it, but it was a relief to get it confirmed.

listening to Christmas music for the time being.

I got up early bought a coffee and toastie from coffee shop and sat on bench outside to eat and drink cos of covid coffee shops are takeaway only.
I went to food hall and got a few things I forgot to get yesterday was meant to get butter but forgot that today also,I forgot it yesterday,I think I've got enough to get through
xmas I can go out on Boxing day if need be but I think I can last till Jan 2.I found a cute penguin like thing full of bath bombs,it was half price so I bought one as an xmas present for my sister,I think she will like it.

I got home and went straight upstairs and changed my clothes and wrapped the present,made a cup of tea and got the radio on.No chores to do today and nothing urgent to do,I can chill out and rest all day.I cancelled my zoon session with my therapist cos she upset me,I lost confidence in her.She told me to eat to feel better,'go on she said have a bit of what you fancy, a little won't hurt,live a little,,she is saying this to her client who has come to her for help with an eating disorder,eating food when depressed for comfort and she as a therapist was encouraging me to eat to make myself feel better.She's supposed to stop me relying on food for comfort not tell me to do it!Anyway this angered me and I didn't want to talk about it today we were going to do that but I'm still too angry to talk,I will discuss it in January.

Apart from that I am coping ok,so I will just relax and enjoy the next few days!

I'm not coping well. My female cat woke me up in the middle of the night crying. I took care of her. Now my male cat is crying. I'm not sure what he wants. I try everything I can think of. I haven't tried the calming spray though. I may do that. I really need more sleep. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted.

Doing really well this week, working every day and keeping busy, also extremely pleased my vulnerable parents have now had their first vaccine for Cv19.

I’m not coping today. I woke up feeling ropey but then also I’m off work for 2 weeks yet they keep emailing me so I lost it. I feel helpless and pathetic and not in control of my life. If someone told me what to do to be happier/less sad/ more content I’d do it in a heartbeat but I feel like I don’t have options.

I'm feeling really down and angry due to my grief because of the anniversary of losing my mom the day before Christmas eve.