How are you coping today? #3

It's so hard
Looking at the past pretending bad **** did not happen seems the only way

I finally slept decently. But I’ve been in a mood all day about my physical health.

I'm not coping very well today.

I am coping ok.

I'm doing much better this morning. Yesterday started off rough, but by noon I was feeling upbeat. I've been using a lot of DBT skills. I hope to keep learning and be as mindful as possible.

I am coping pretty well this morning.

I feel good today, better than in a while. Still working on that motivation.

I read something that talked about negative character traits, so I’ll just stick to the positive ones now.

I’m kinda down this afternoon. I saw a weird doctor this morning and my therapist sometimes acts like a psychopath. It makes it hard to know who to trust. Plus I’m not hungry tonight even though I took all my meds and that kinda worries me a bit when that happens.

Only slept 4 hours last night but it was what I expected.

Yesterday, my of chemo induced pain was nearly gone; however, during this last chemo, I slipped into maximizing all the drugs that help me sleep (and they did). With my surgery on the 24th coupled with the mental confusion one of the drugs is causing, I cut back on one of the drugs (a prescription that I stopped asking for a year or two ago but have 3 or 4 months worth left). In the past, when I have stopped this med (gabapentin), I can't sleep for about 3 days then I am fine. Three days of sleeping badly is harder when chemo hasn't totally wore off so perhaps I just need to let my doc's know I am still taking. It is either that or stop since my surgeon will need to know all the pills I am taking right before surgery. Then their is the drug that makes me confused that is a whole other issue. Medications provide relief for so much until their negative effects raise their ugly sides.....

I'm not coping that well. But I will try to get more sleep. Maybe that will help.

Struggling to accept the hell that happened
I find it very hard to cope and as much as I understand the importance of positivity and relax, sometimes it's been to much and you just want to scream it... helplessy
I have been into a disaster for years and realizing just Now... damn

I am coping pretty well this morning. I hope to fulfill some small goals today.

Have had two days in a row where I felt short periods of that weird, unexplained anxiety. Nothing bad has happened lately, either, I’m just at home doing my own thing and we have a fairly relaxed atmosphere here.

Desperate
After +10 years careless

Motivation was better today, I got up really early and ran a short run out before I had time to wake up. So then I rolled on with It, laundry and household jobs etc. I did feel better. It's so dark these days, I think that's part of the lowered motivation.

Okay considering I feel sad and still tired.

Woke up tired and extremely thirsty. Hope I can go back to bed in a few hours or take an afternoon nap.

I'm doing better now. When I woke up I felt awful physically. I took some Tyleno and started drinking water. My emotions are doing Okay this morning. I'm playing my game, which is a good distration.

I hope you can work in that nap, @TunedOut!

When you work on yourself and prioritize self-care and love, you can overcome all the obstacles coming your way. I'm feeling better every day. Thanks for all the support and love.

The last couple of mornings, I have been able to get a little sleep after breakfast.

I think I’m coping somewhat ok today. I was getting depressed so I looked over my DBT worksheet my T emailed me. Then I decided to take a walk which helped a lot with my depression and anxiety. But I feel like I should be eating more with how many calories I’ve burned on my walk and how many I actually set for today. I have 1,190 calories planned but with my walk I feel like I’m pretty low... and the eating part is really really pissing off my T. Yeah alot of it is restriction but the other part is I am clueless when it comes to nutrition.

I had a really good day. I got jobs done in the morning and then in the afternoon I met a relative I hadnt seen since the summer, outdoors, distanced, just 2 of us, within rules. It was so good to see her again. It was cold and we couldn't stay long because of that but I was so grateful for it.

I feel a lot of stress. The only time I am relaxed is if I'm meditating. I'm doing a lot of meditation. For some strange reason, my cats are really getting on my nerves. I may have to use some coping thoughts as well.