How are you coping today? #3

Things were rough today. But I dealt with it. My moods were ok for the most part but my depression was real bad. I didn’t show it though. I didn’t do any retail therapy and I stayed inside except to get chipotles. I took all my night meds, a Xanax, and 2 sleeping pills and I’m under my 20 pounds of weighted blankets and I feel better than I have all day.

I know we’re not allowed to say it out right but I am wrestling with some all to familiar demons this week. I feel as though I am between a rock and a hard place. Not a lot of options for help right now. I have a therapist who downplays my issues a lot. Makes me feel alone with this.

I'm coping by getting things done. I made a to-do list this morning and I'm just going through it step by step. I'll get it all done. Once I'm finished, I'll relax. I'll feel better about myself and my day if I finish everything.

Been downhearted today but I'm not encumbered by anything except taking care of my immediate needs. A lady smiled and said hi to me today which was nice as it really helps to offset my negative self thoughts. Anyway, I feel I'm coping well under the (my) circumstances.

Thank you.

I'm ok but have been very stressed lately. I had the day "off" but instead of feeling good, I took on other people's energy and then started getting really depressed. I did some paperwork to try to snap myself out of it. It seems like some people are not their best selves during this pandemic, and it's been hard to carve out a more positive space for myself. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I need some things to look forward to.

I'm about an hour out from getting my first vaccine shot. My anxiety has been up and down about this since getting it scheduled. I'm not worried about the side effects coming later after the shot, I'm most worried about having an extreme reaction when I get it and abandoning my pups. If I'm OK an hour or two after the shot, I imagine my anxiety will go way down. My friend had both of theirs already and told me they mostly felt a huge relief that it was over. I've heard that same sentiment a lot this week, so I guess I'm in good company. So, yeah, I'm freaking out a little, but also excited to get back to life after the second shot.

Edit: Back home. They asked to have me wait for 15 in the store, but I stayed 20. Then I sat in my car for another 20. So, far, so, good. Big relief.

Far better today than in the last week or month. Feeling quite a bit better.

I've been working on fun projects and taking breaks to do chores. I think it's working out well balancing everything and going at a leisurely pace. I feel calm and I'm in a good mood.

I'm coping by being here & reading what you all are saying.

Today was a rare half and half day mood wise. This morning I was super moody and crabby because I was out shopping and I desperately needed to use the bathroom but I didn’t feel like dealing with public restrooms. Also I thought I smelled weird and I was kinda paranoid. Then we stopped at a drive thru for lunch and I felt better after eating. At the last 2 thrift stores I found exactly what I was looking for. So that made me feel better. Then I came home and brushed my teeth and I took a hot shower and put on cooler clothes. I sat on my rocking chair the rest of the afternoon. Then I felt a ton better. Now I am fine. I think being out of my house still gives me a bit of the heebie jeebies even though I’m getting used to it.

Not well. I hope it doesn't rain for too many more days. I don't like it when I can't get outside and get away. I feel others closer to me are tired of my gloominess, I feel lonely, and it seems like I'll never climb out of my depression. I wish there was a fool proof way I can get my sense of joy back. I'm wondering what activity is most effective in helping this kind of depression that is brought on by loneliness. Nothing seems to make me happy today.

I coped badly last night and as a result I paid for it today. I was kinda crabby but I got out of the house for the inspection with no problem. I didn’t go into any stores though. We had to be out for almost 2 hours. But it wasn’t a big deal staying in the car. We stopped at my uncles quickly to drop off stuff and he has this big sheepdog and the dog scares me because he stares at me weirdly and I’m worried he’s sizing me up to attack me. I’m not one to be scared at all of dogs so this is kind of unusual behavior for me. But anyways now I’m at home in bed under my weighted blankets and I’ve taken my prescribed meds and nothing else so I’m hoping to relax and feel better tomorrow.

Not doing too great this morning. I got my first vaccine on Wednesday morning and have had very little side effects. Having health anxiety got me convinced that it was going to be terrible, but it hasn't been. But as is typical of me, I just knew that feeling good and uplifted wouldn't last. I've been listening to a Brene Brown audio-book, and she talked about "the other shoe dropping." And it dawned on me that I do just that. I don't tend to enjoy good days as much as I can because it's going to be followed by a bad day. I'm not sure if I predicted or caused myself to feel down this morning. What got me down this morning is that I weighed myself and I've lost about 4 pounds in the last 2 weeks and a couple days. Even 60 pounds ago, whenever I lost weight I just knew it was a sign that I was dying. So, I would eat terribly for a week and my weight would go back up and I would relax. But I've been trying to bring my weight down to ensure I can live long enough to be with my pups and it's been a pretty harrowing journey. Knowing that the weight is coming off because I'm eating better. Deliberately. Still, this morning it seems to be bothering me again more than normal.

Anyway, feeling down this morning... for getting good news. Weird. My brain is an a-hole.

I've been coping so far today by reading, here at the forums, & about antibodies. Very interesting.

I'm doing well today. I started a new project and that has me happy. I got my 2nd dose of the vaccine. I was nervous about leaving the house but I worked on settling down by taking a nap and then focusing on my project.

I’m still struggling today. I swear this is the week I am dealing with PMS. I thought it was last week. But I had planned on spending the day out of the house shopping. Instead I spent it in bed lying down and sleeping. I really did want to go out but I just didn’t have the energy.

I'm okay. I feel like it's been an up and down sort of week but on balance it's been okay. I've enjoyed some sunny days and walking with my husband on the coast and by the river. Its so beautiful there.

On the downside my back has been sore, I hurt it at work so I'm being very careful with it.

I am struggling today. This morning I called the hotline. I talked with a really nice person for almost 40 minutes. It felt good to finally talk with someone about what's going on. I never get to talk to anyone. Not even my therapist.

It has been very difficult today until about half an hour ago. I'm coping fine at the moment. Just apprehensive, but hoping this letup lasts for the rest of the day, & wishing I could keep it.

This morning I took a lot of meds. Xanax and stuff. I woke up at 11 to get food and then I went back to bed but I needed my weekly shot and I don’t know how, but it felt like the shot made me feel better. Usually I get really sick from it. But once I got the shot I snapped out of the mood I’ve been in for 2 days and I got out of bed and I did all my laundry and I cleaned and I watched the old sitcoms I try to watch on the weekend. So after 11:30 I was fine. It’s possible my levels need to be adjusted.