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Default Dec 22, 2020 at 07:08 PM
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I'm going through a very painful divorce after abuse with a malignant narcissist.

I am finding myself again, after 3 years of burying who I am. HE was most important - in every way.

So.... my happiness is emerging again, after 3 long years. I feel actual JOY. I feel ELATION. I am myself again. My true spirit is coming alive again!

I AM GRATEFUL.

Every day is a winding road, however... and thank you, Cheryl Crow.

Tomorrow I may be down in the dumps again. Divorce is not easy. But it's the end of a chapter, and the beginning of a new one.

I can do this.... I CAN MAKE IT.

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Default Dec 27, 2020 at 07:38 AM
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An update:

There have been many sorrowful days in the past month since our separation, many tears and much sadness.

HOWEVER, through all the pain and tears, I have experienced moments and nights filled with sheer joy - joy over feeling like my true self and spirit are coming back to life - joy over the freedom I now can enjoy without him squelching me, abusing me, and insulting me - joy and happiness over the life I can now lead without him, that will be far more fulfilling for me.

I have danced alone in my living room, listening to MY music that I never got to enjoy while with him.

Myself is coming back and for that, I am deeply grateful.

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Heart Dec 27, 2020 at 10:23 AM
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God bless you, Have Hope! And good luck with everything! I wish you strength & strong spirit! I'll be sending you wishes filled with love & hope & cosmic, spiritual energy!
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Keep fighting, my FriEnd!
I will! Thanks, Mickey!!!

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God bless you, Have Hope! And good luck with everything! I wish you strength & strong spirit! I'll be sending you wishes filled with love & hope & cosmic, spiritual energy!
Aw, thank you SO MUCH @Breaking Dawn!

God bless you as well!!!

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Default Jan 03, 2021 at 10:07 AM
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Well, he has tried to flip the tables on me, trying to make me feel badly about myself and make me feel less than the amazing person I know I am.

I refuse to allow this. My worth is not defined by HIM. My value in this world and my self esteem are not built around what HE thinks of me.

And he is lashing out at me, trying anything and everything to deflect responsibility onto me for his abuse.

It's been a very up and down process for me - but I am slowly emerging as a much stronger, more resilient and confident woman.

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Default Jan 03, 2021 at 01:50 PM
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I am a member of many facebook abuse groups - there's one in particular for women that I have gravitated towards. I am SICK, just SICK over how many women are abused in this world and over how many abusers there are.

I am going to start a women's group one day for abuse survivors I think. I want to help empower women somehow. My experience (long-term experience) with abuse has got to be beneficial to others and I want to give back to those in need somehow.

This makes me happy - to think that all of my pain, anguish and tears can be used to help other women to know how beautiful and precious they truly are. We need more of this in this world. FEMALE EMPOWERMENT and WOMAN-TO-WOMAN SUPPORT.

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Default Jan 28, 2021 at 05:15 PM
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My life is unfolding and is coming together and it's AMAZING!!!!!!!!!

I got a KICK A-S-S job with an incredible company and a 30K raise from my last position!

My husband is almost all the way moved out, and I couldn't be happier!!!!!!!

The divorce will be underway soon, and we won't need to communicate anymore. YAY!

AND..... I am happier!!!!!!!!! The sweet taste of success, the feeling of true freedom ahead, and a world wide open with possibility is incredible!!!!!!!!

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Default Jan 28, 2021 at 05:33 PM
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WELL DONE!!!!

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WELL DONE!!!!

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