I Feel So Depressed

Work is really getting me down... I feel like a lot of people are able to get away with slacking off while at work or ditching work completely (like most of them did this past Sunday), while I am limping around the pharmacy with tears in my eyes from the pain, busting my ***. Management will do nothing about it because we are so understaffed that firing those people won't help our situation. I've been training a very sweet lady whose first language is not English, and I've tried and tried in multiple ways to help her understand how we do things and why, but she is not getting it. I feel like it's my fault. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow for the pain I have been experiencing, and I really hope they don't tell me I have to wear special shoes or anything like that. The pain is in my feet and my ankles, and it has been pretty terrible lately. I feel very lonely. I wish I hadn't taken this promotion-- my name isn't even on the board with the other leads yet. I don't want to quit exactly, because I like the people and my benefits through my job are actually really good. But I agree with my mom (whom I called this morning) that I need to talk to my supervisor. This simply isn't working.

Dear Indigo1015,

It is awful when work is a miserable ordeal, especially since we spend so much of our life at work. I am so sorry things are terrible for you at work and also sorry for the awful pain you are enduring. I hope things somehow improve!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

so Sorry that work is being hard. It is certainly not fair that other people aren't doing their work and that you're paying for it. i agree with the wise and wonderful Yaowen and with your wise and wonderful mother about being So Sorry about this and about talking to your supervisor. Please do not give up. i Hope your doctor will be able to Help as Well. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH yoy, @indigo1015, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

This sounds really horrible for you - I hope you can find a workable solution.
As for the new lady, don’t blame yourself. Even without a language barrier, it’s not always possible to get someone to do things your way. I’ve recently trained two people to do my job, too - the first one (we’re both in/from England) ended up being fired (the issue was his huge attitude problem, didn’t do anything properly because of that. I felt like I’d failed at first, then reminded myself this was a grown man, perfectly capable of following instructions, just didn’t want to). The second guy is working out much better, but I still had a headache from reminding him about doing things a certain way. At the end of the day, we can’t control what other people do, we can only control ourselves. I know it’s stressful when new (or otherwise) colleagues can’t/don’t want to perform in the ways we need, but you’ve done your best with her, so the rest is up to her.

Thanks everyone... appreciate the considerate and thoughtful comments!