How are you coping today? #4

I’m okay today. I’m doing chores until I feel sleepy. It’s stressful but living in filth is worse. So I’ll keep pushing.

@WovenGalaxy @Deila

The Neuroscience of Mindfulness: The Astonishing Science behind How Everyday Hobbies Help You Relax by Stan Rodski

I have it on loan via my library app.

I'm not.

pretty much the usual... sat here wondering the point to my life

I'm a tiny bit better today. Didn't sleep well, but had more snuggles with my pups. I even said during the snuggles, "I'm so happy right now." And I was. Things have been a little better this morning but anxiety has a way of asserting itself and I can sense the push backwards. I started a new thread under Anxiety to give further details to my issues. If any of you are interested, no pressure at all. Just wanted to see about getting help.

Today is going to be another cold snowy day, so we'll see how it goes. I don't like the really cold and gloomy. Chills are starting and I don't know if it's the weather or the anxiety.

Hope everyone has a better day.

I guess today was a bit much. I worked for 12hrs and went for a bike ride for 45min after. Once again I saw someone standing on the edge of my vision, just standing, looking at me. When I look, the person is gone. I really don't know how to deal with this. It happens quite often at the moment. Not always the same szenario, but every day or every other day I remember something and it takes me a minute or so to realize whether it really happened or was a dream.

I’m being gentle with myself, and put on a nice top despite feeling so down.

I decide to do some more cleaning today as a way to deal with the emotional abuse I been going through these past two days by my sister who been bullying me since I can remember.

Hope you get more time to relax today. Too much computer time (do you work on a computer?) can mess with your eyes/vision

i ... am ... maxxxed ... the ... h .... out!
i can't take anymore- no more appts, no more people judging me, don't care about injuries, don't even care that there still is pain cuz things aren't healed yet, no more medicines, just nothing more!
who gives a bleep anyways

Plumbing fun today Toilet was overflowing and realized it too late. Sopped up the water with numerous towels then the washing machine suddenly stopped. My H is investigating the washing machine problem...

All is not lost I hear the washing machine going. Apparently, the lid and buttons have to be wiggled when it stops. My toilet and washing machine require extra supervision....

I'm doing okay today, Spring weather helps a lot. Going to take a walk out to the big supermarket this afternoon for a special ingredient for something new I'm going to try making.

Yesterday afternoon was better. Last night I felt a lot of loneliness and there just wasn't much going on around here (this site). So, rather than refresh every 10 seconds, I just closed up my laptop and watched TV. That did help. I might be focusing too much on my anxiety and not enough on other things. Distraction does have it's place.

I actually slept fairly well last night. Not long enough or well enough, but compared to the last few days, I'll take it. Not sure if it was the "brainwave" music throughout the day or something else, but plenty happy to have a better night. This morning it's cold and gloomy again, but I did some self talk telling myself that "I am happy" and "It is going to be a good day." I have things to keep me busy and engaged if I'll just do them.

Hope you all have a good day.

I missed a very important medical appointment this morning. But I have it rescheduled for two weeks from now. That helps me feel better. I just panicked this morning and talked myself out of it. It's for a 2-hour imaging test with dyes and drugs. I'm not looking forward to it.

Coped pretty well yesterday. I nearly felt normal. It was nice to be out and about doing ordinary things and catching the train.

Coping generally well lately, although today I am feeling worthless.

I'm not doing too well. I just deleted all of the stuff I just typed up because I realize that it kinda feels like I should only superficially talk about my issues.

I hope everyone has a good day.

I feel depressed today. Therapy isn't helping. I'm not sure what will. I will try to be productive and see if that cheers me up.

Today was a really good day - I saw a group of my friends outdoors for a picnic, it was the first time we'd been together in over a year (although we'd met separately in pairs). It was sunny and relaxed and made me realise how little we really need to be happy.

Sending a big hug to my PC friends too - thanks for being here, especially this last year.

Hi @AGent9QA

I must admit, in terms of how much detail and/or how superfucial I think my posts should be, I'm never quite sure about it. I give it a lot of thought though, as you probably do too. I always ask myself the question "what am I trying to achieve by bearing my soul this time? Is it good or bad?" but there's never really just one answer to that. For me.

I do like reading your posts though, because I appreciate introspection and self honesty. It kind of gives me, and maybe others too, the 'permission' to share what's really going on within the self. 🙏

About to head out into the world for my 2.5 hours walk and to put my coping skills to the test yet again. By doing this all the time, I hope simply to grow stronger emotionally, mentally.

Wishing everyone some peace for your day. 🙏

Today has been interesting. Definitely a mix of stuff.

I have been experiencing depression and I finally was able to admit that to my therapist today. I cried. A lot.

I spent a lot of time at my parents in the afternoon / evening, and had dinner over there. It was nice.

In the late afternoon someone from church called me. I thought he was going to ask for a donation since its that time of year, but he told me I'd been nominated for an administrative position / role there. It was the nicest thing ever. Really. It was such a surprise and I was not expecting that. I asked for a day to think about it. Though I've decided to accept.

I'm having a difficult time. I feel overwhelmed and I can't relax. Maybe I will try to play a game for a while. But I have a lot I have to do today. I wish I could take the day off.

All of this sounds wonderful.

Thank you TunedOut!

It's mid morning and so far I'm doing OK. I didn't sleep great. I've been trying to get myself completely off of sleep aids and while I've stopped the drugs, I still take melatonin. I would like to stop that as well. Last night I fell asleep under my own power! Of course I woke up an hour later, so took some melatonin, but a much smaller dose. I'll take it. Small victories. I'm also trying sleep restriction, i.e. only being in bed for 5-6 hours (though I may go shorter). This forces my body/mind to understand that bed is for sleep only. Of course, I need to stop reading on a tablet in bed right up until I fall asleep. Don't want to buy books and still hesitant to get books from the library. I've also started getting a little more exercise to try to poop myself out and burn off the adrenaline.

My health anxiety has lessened the last 24 hours or so. I've started listening to another Claire Weekes audiobook. She helps me so much to understand anxiety. I also see how I'm fighting my anxiety. I'm attaching the feeling that it's bad and I'm bad for having it. But that fighting is just prolonging it. I have anxiety (GAD) and I'm not bad because of it. It just is. So, I need to learn to REALLY accept it and then get on with my life. I attach WAY TOO MUCH importance to the thoughts of dying and hospitals and abandoning my pups. They're just thoughts (super common thoughts) and thanks to neuroplasticity (wooo, science!), I know I can change them by thinking other things. Just need to get better and jumping in between the initial thought and the spiral that often comes with it.

Hope everyone had a good day. Thanks @mote.of.soul!