How are you coping today? #4

I am just so physically exhausted for some reason. It’s making me be really crabby and angry. I can handle my anxiety ok. I’ll just take a Valium or listen to a podcast when I’m anxious and it works. But being tired is just the worst for me. I’d always have to leave work early when I was tired. Even if I was massively anxious I’d be ok at work. But if I was tired I couldn’t function. I’ve been drinking so much caffeine today trying to wake up. I just had a diet Dr. Pepper and I feel somewhat more awake and less crabby.

I mean I got my point across today and I got the answer I wanted even if I was kind of a jerk about the way I did it. I didn’t know how else to do it besides get vocal about what I needed. I do know though that it’s not just me. There’s just not a connection. I did make it out of the house. I went to the library and I got my flu shot and I even took a walk for the first time in awhile. I just have some situational things going on that are making things tough.

I have been acting very very bornderlinish today towards my therapist. My self esteem and self worth have been mild and my visible mood swings are better. I didn’t do anything risky. So I think it’s just my PMDD that often mirrors BPD but it only happens 10 days out of the month. I do try very hard to avoid the word abandonment since I rarely feel it but I used it today and I felt it.

I’m being a bit *****y and needy today. But I’ve also kept to myself most of the day and listened to a few podcasts instead of just BSing online all day.

I'm not coping. I'm miserable.

Not well. I was very crabby and anxious and I’ve taken too many Valium. I got my shot a day early and I’m unusually nauseated from it right now. So I don’t know if all that Valium interfered or if it’s just more anxiety. I didn’t have any food or beverages that would have messed with anything. I had just enough caffeine so I wouldn’t go through withdrawals but not enough so that I’d be up the wall.I didn’t have any tea either. I took 50mil of melatonin last night but I felt ok from it when I woke up and it didn’t even really work.

But I’m mainly just stressed about things I can’t control or do anything about and my hair is a mess from running my fingers through it all day because of anxiety and stress.

I need to do some legit good distraction this weekend.

I'm coping a little better this evening. I've been posting on the forum and drinking iced coffee. I got carrot sticks to help with the vaping urge. I had a nice tomato salad for dinner. Even though I miss vaping, I feel okay right now.

I could be coping better but I don’t think I’m doing terribly. I was moody and crabby early this morning. Then again around noon. At noon I was actually quite angry and a bit S. But I took a nap which helped a lot. I tried spreading out my Geodon and for the most part except for the second dose at noon it worked well. I’m not able to use the coping skill I want to. I lost something I need and I can’t find it anywhere. I tried reading and I got through less then a sentence before giving up on it. But I didn’t go over on my Valium. I only took the 3 I’m prescribed. I was gonna double up but that’s when I fell asleep instead.

I avoided the store by doing online shopping instead. I gave myself a cheat day from my diet for my mental health sakes. I didn’t feel like having a meltdown from restricting.

So I’m not coping that bad. I know what I want and what will and won’t work. but I still think things could have been better today.

I did do something really mean for no reason at all and I think it was pretty obvious to the person I did it to.

I'm coping by cleaning house, sleeping and playing games. Today is much better.

Though I still occasionally read a few posts, I apologize for not keeping up/supporting many of the people who post here. I have started a new job with an assisted living facility, am trying to serve others better face to face in my personal life (verses on here anonymously) and finding myself more interested in spiritual verses psychological things. I was drawn to this forum in order to help me understand why I made a very serious attempt on my life in 2015. This forum did provide some of the answers; however, I also believe there was a spiritual component to the reason why. I appreciate so much all the support so many people here have provided and hope that in the future, I will be moved in my spirit to share more with the wonderful people here. My focus has moved to other things but I still check in periodically and feel love and appreciation towards many who post here. Hugs to all who read this post!

I'm coping with games and iced coffee. Doing chores helps too.

@TunedOut, you are very much loved & appreciated. Thank you for being with us whenever you can.

I’m coping well today for once. My moods and anxiety have been controlled for the first time in 2 weeks. I started reading again for the first time in about 10 days. I got my book finally finished. PMDD is the worst but it sure switches off fast when it’s over.

I'm coping with meditation, sleeping with my cats, cooking and playing games.

Watching movies

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I did some journaling about how I been feeling depressed. I thought that if I vent to my journal. I would sound less like a complainer.

I think I did pretty well today actually. Despite the fact I wasn’t happy. I took my prescribed meds. Nothing extra. I cut a 10 milligram melatonin in half instead of taking 50mil. I gave my mom my med box. I handled therapy decently. I’m a bit low on calories today but I’ll eat if I get hungry. I tried managing my anxiety by drinking a lot of tension tamer tea. I didn’t ask for too much reassurance or even worry about most things a ton. I hate my therapist but don’t a lot of people.

I am feeling well and hopeful. I think my illness has mellowed out a bit since I got older. I feel blessed. Of course, I take my medication daily. This is the key to my stability and getting over little bouts of psychosis. I am grateful for today and what tomorrow may bring. Blessings to you all!

Hi, bpforever! It's so nice to hear from you & that you're doing well. I'm so glad for you!

still brooding a little over the hurt of it all and thinking how I want a 'new' life apart from my siblings and thinking if I get that real metal twirling baton, then some of them can sit there and wonder and see it for real to make up for this joke of a life.

Under the circumstances I did well. I didn’t change out of my sweat pants but I wanted to wear loose pants today. I had a decent size freak out that I don’t regret even after I took my meds. I know I made the right choice. Nothing has come out of it so far. I was heavy on the caffeine and then on the Valium. but I’ve also had a lot of water to counter the caffeine. And I ate some bread to deal with the anxiety as well. Carbs make my anxiety better.

I just got an injection in my wrist. It's quite painful at the moment. I'll cope with Tylenol and a nap.

Today I ended up coping pretty good. I started out the day experiencing sad & bad things, but things improved. I wouldn't say I'm happy now, but very grateful for some improvements.

I’m tired l, I’m hungry, need to eat dinner soon, and get some clothes in the dryer. Weather was awesome today so enjoyed a nice walk with my dog after work.

I haven’t gone off the deep end yet. Which is good. I’ve been ****ed over but I’ve also taken care of something that was bothering me. I still don’t have my antibiotics yet though. Walgreens is so slow. I went on a quick walk though to boost my mood. It helped my mood but it didn’t help my exhaustion. Basically I’m just hanging on today.

I coped by going for a drive. It's a pretty day. I'm getting ready to sit on my patio for a while.