I'm really struggling. I feel like some of my life is falling apart, like I've gotten the death card in tarot or something and its coming true and I'm not ready.

Some of it has to do with hurt. Having been hurt by others. Actually, all of it does.

I'm not ready to leave my meditation group. I'm not ready to stop volunteering. I'm just taking some time away from both places due to being hurt, and figuring out how I want to proceed.

And then there's my brother. He's causing me a lot of pain. I wrote about it in the relationships forum. My family. I just don't feel able to deal with this while depressed. It breaks my heart.

I truthfully may need a therapist who I click with better. But imo, therapy doesn't do much these days.

I wish I had more solid and deep friendships. I wish...I wish I felt like more of a member here. I'm a previous member. It just hasn't been the same for a while now.

[sarahsweets]

Originally Posted by WovenGalaxy

I'm really struggling. I feel like some of my life is falling apart, like I've gotten the death card in tarot or something and its coming true and I'm not ready.

Some of it has to do with hurt. Having been hurt by others. Actually, all of it does.

I'm not ready to leave my meditation group. I'm not ready to stop volunteering. I'm just taking some time away from both places due to being hurt, and figuring out how I want to proceed.

And then there's my brother. He's causing me a lot of pain. I wrote about it in the relationships forum. My family. I just don't feel able to deal with this while depressed. It breaks my heart.

I truthfully may need a therapist who I click with better. But imo, therapy doesn't do much these days.

I wish I had more solid and deep friendships. I wish...I wish I felt like more of a member here. I'm a previous member. It just hasn't been the same for a while now.

Hey @WovenGalaxy: you are not lazy, crazy, evil, horrible, terrible, unlovable, unworthy, worthless, useless, or insignificant.
You are human.
you have flaws.
You have gifts.
Keep your chin up.

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@sarahsweets Thank you.

edit: this deserves a better response. I wasn't able earlier. But what you said really cheered me up a bit. Thank you.

[Discombobulated]

(((Wovengalaxy))) I'm sorry you're having sadness and stress in your family relationships, that must be really difficult on top of other things you're dealing with.

I think it's wise to just step back like you are, you may just need some time alone, to reboot.

I also feel it isn't the same here either these days, but there are some good members and I am always here for you!

Originally Posted by Discombobulated

(((Wovengalaxy))) I'm sorry you're having sadness and stress in your family relationships, that must be really difficult on top of other things you're dealing with.

I think it's wise to just step back like you are, you may just need some time alone, to reboot.

I also feel it isn't the same here either these days, but there are some good members and I am always here for you!

@Discombobulated Thank you. I am managing better today. Later, I'm planning to make a plan for tonight, with some self care things to do so I don't ruminate on the negative. Sometimes, too, I get in the mind-frame of, "this is awful," especially when depressed. but with relationships, etc, I am finding, that most people are good. And there are many sides and ways to look at things. It's hard sometimes. And it doesn't mean that the things people do don't hurt us. But yeah.


Yes, I agree, there are some good people here.

Thank you for your support!!

[Bill3]

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[mssweatypalms]

Hi, WovenGalaxy! I've been here for only a couple of months. There are a lot of nice people here and I feel like I've received some support from all of you. Just here to say you're not alone.

[sarahsweets]

Originally Posted by WovenGalaxy

I'm really struggling. I feel like some of my life is falling apart, like I've gotten the death card in tarot or something and its coming true and I'm not ready.

Some of it has to do with hurt. Having been hurt by others. Actually, all of it does.

I'm not ready to leave my meditation group. I'm not ready to stop volunteering. I'm just taking some time away from both places due to being hurt, and figuring out how I want to proceed.

And then there's my brother. He's causing me a lot of pain. I wrote about it in the relationships forum. My family. I just don't feel able to deal with this while depressed. It breaks my heart.

I truthfully may need a therapist who I click with better. But imo, therapy doesn't do much these days.

I wish I had more solid and deep friendships. I wish...I wish I felt like more of a member here. I'm a previous member. It just hasn't been the same for a while now.

I know I responded already I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. If you need to take a break from those groups and do it! Self-care is super important.

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