[johndoe6382]

About a week ago a really sweet, kind person moved out of the building where I live. I miss her. She moved out of state with her husband.

I used to run into her once or twice a year, and when we did, had friendly discussions like asking how each is doing and wishing a nice weekend. I know, seems like no big thing as people move all the time. But I think she was like one of the nicest people I've ever met in my life and I'll probably never meet someone as nice again.

I'm in the transition period of thinking of her in the past tense instead of someone in the present tense.

I was doing fine yesterday until going downstairs to get my mail then by the elevator when we last said goodbye and that just brings the feeling of I'll never get to see the person again.

This got me thinking about of other people I've lost in the past. Family and friends through death. Or others too who I didn't imagine they wouldn't be a part of my life but ended up moving on.

I think the hardest part of letting go is the fear of forgetting. I remember when my Mom and a dear dear friend died years ago, I'd start my day and end my evenings before going to bed thinking about them. It's true that the first major holidays without them are brutal. Nothing but an empty chair to bring the feeling of loss.

In time, one doesn't think about the person gone the first time the first thing of the day and last thing at night. For my Mom and dear dear friend, now their birthdays go by or Mother's day for my mom and I forget the days have come and gone.

One one hand, time has away of softening the loss. But also has a way of making us forget the good and put once cherished memories in the background.

[MickeyCheeky]

So Sorry for your Losses! Please Do not give up! i think what you wrote is pretty thoughtful. The Losses i have experiences myself were those of some of my grandparents and nothing more major than that luckily. Still, i think i can understand what you mean. i am of the idea that to forget something so meaningful may be impossible althugh one can certainly try to bury it. i Hope you're feeling better now and that you're getting through it one way or another. Please do try your best. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @johndoe6382, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!