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Default Aug 29, 2021 at 05:19 AM
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I'm staying at home and working online. I don't go out now except to buy some food at the store. This pandemic is becoming worse.

I am vaccinated but am still not 100 percent confident it is protective against the delta variant.

I'm going to stay home until this all passes.

I was on a dating app and met two men recently, that is, two weeks ago. But, that is enough. I am getting anxious. I wore a mask and did social distancing etc.
But, I don't think it is enough now.

I had a man I met and wrote about but we decided to stop seeing each other. He wanted free English lessons and that is about it. So, I was not interested.

The other man I just met once and sat away from him. He was not interested in me so he turned me down.

I disabled my account because the rest of the men wanted hookups. Who would want to hook up now?

I talk to other people online but that is it. My family was mad I was eating out. I stopped this too.

I am really nervous about this pandemic now. I am vaccinated and wear a mask outside but it does not seem enough.

As a result, I will stay home as much as possible and hope this passes sooner or later.

My health is ok so far. I feel tired most of the time due to my medication so I have to drink coffee. Otherwise, I'm getting used to being alone.

I was lonely for a while but the heck with that idea. I'd rather feel safe given the situation.
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Default Aug 29, 2021 at 01:16 PM
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Dear bpforever1,

I can totally identify with you and what you wrote.

I am weary of the pandemic and worried too. I only go out to buy groceries.

Before this pandemic started, I bought a lot of 3M N95 masks for flu season. Now when I go get groceries I wear one of these. I also bought some airtight swimming goggles since the SARS-CoVID can attach to the mucous membranes of the eyes. I've learned from a nurse how to remove these and my clothing carefully after a trip to the grocery store. And I wear Latex gloves too.

People in the stores look at me and laugh or roll their eyes, but I don't care. I am not in the best of health and even though I am completely vaccinated, I once almost died of the flu so I figure I owe it to myself to be super careful.

Being alone constantly was awful at the beginning of the pandemic but now I am pretty used to it although sometimes it become wearying and draining. Like you, I am trying to be safe.

During the early pandemic I used a food delivery service and may go back to that as things get worse.

Since my depressive mindset seems hardwired to a "could or should be better but isn't" I try to lean towards a "could be worse but isn't worse" state of mind when I can to try and keep my sanity. Not always easy since depression affects one's state of mind in a profound way.

You seem wise to me in your attitude and in the precautions you take. I can only commend you for that.

I wonder how long this awful pandemic will go given the mutations and all. They were talking about offering booster shots against COVID six months after one received the second shot. Now they are saying that perhaps we will have to weight 8 months. - sigh-

I wish you only the best of luck in your life. Hope we both survive this awful situation.

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Default Aug 29, 2021 at 06:15 PM
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bpforever, good for you. It sure is a scary time. We do what we have to do to stay safe. Yes it can be lonely. But there's a lot of ways to cope with loneliness. Glad you're staying safe.
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Default Sep 23, 2021 at 04:11 AM
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The government may lift the state of emergency here at the end of this month.

I've been lying low for a month now and feel ok but it's hot here.

I don't feel lonely but am tired from not exercising enough and sleeping a lot.

I need to go out a little after the state of emergency is lifted.

I am still afraid of meeting people though. I will wait a while before doing so.

Life goes on and is going ok!

I am so happy to be alive and relatively healthy still.

I have to go to the doctor for a medication check.

I hope everybody stays safe and remains stable!!!
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My doctor was glad that I am doing well. I feel blessed. I am still lying low. I hope to work out more once the state of emergency is lifted. I am happy!
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Default Oct 05, 2021 at 03:49 PM
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I am still lying low. A healthcare professional told me he expects a rebound in infected cases before Christmas. So, I'm staying inside and avoiding people until there is some evidence of a resolution of this pandemic. I am scared but not paranoid. I will lie low. I am keeping busy with my online courses and teaching. Life is good despite the current situation.

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Default Oct 06, 2021 at 06:10 AM
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I wanted to share this for those that have any doubts. my mother was twice married and twice divorced. So my brother is my half brother.
My stepfather is from Texas. And that is where my brothers grandfather lives. He wasn’t quite QAnon but he did not believe in a lot of general facts about Covid, Vaccines, or masks.
He owns a cattle farm. So of course he was taking ivermectin. On 9/11 he went to a classic car show crowded full of people.

About four days later he started to feel unwell. he started to feel like he had the flu or a bad cold so he went to a his doctor. He tested positive for Covid and do you know what his doctor prescribed for him? Hydrochloriquin.

He could barely get off the couch for nearly 2 weeks. His daughter, my brothers half sister, finally convinced him to go to the hospital because it sounded like he was having problems breathing. He went to the emergency room and they admitted him right away.
They had him hooked up to everything minus a ventilator.
His daughter talk to the nurse the next day and the nurse asked her if she wanted them to do everything they could to keep him alive or make him a do not resuscitate. She indicated she wanted them to do everything. so they told her if she wanted them to do everything he was being immediately intubated and put on a ventilator.

I can’t get into all the technical jargon because that is nurse stuff that I don’t understand but all sorts of levels were out of whack, bloodwork, kidney function, all the stuff. Thankfully my brothers sister has been putting my brother on the phone to talk to the doctors and nurses because he knows their language. needless to say it is not looking good. In fact a night or two ago they called them and said they didn’t think he would make it through the night. But he managed to.

His prognosis is not good. He basically could die at any moment and probably will.
Which is a shame because his father is such a ****. His father is such a jerk that he actually left a voicemail stating did that piece of **** die yet?

He is a younger grandfather because he had his son when he was very young. And he takes care of 48 head of cattle so he’s very busy and active.
At one point my brother sister held the phone up to his ear even though he was knocked out so he could have some words of peace.

My brother is a combination of sad and furious. Furious because his grandfather is one of the thousands that he has dealt with that do not believe the virus is real, do not believe in the treatments work, and are busy using the Internet to diagnose themselves and treat themselves with horse paste.

And don’t even get me started on the hydrochloriquin. A medical professional prescribing a lupus drug that has not been proven to be helpful and even proven to be harmful to treat Covid is beyond me.

My brother is helping her sister understand what the nurses and doctors are saying. This hospital is so rinky-dink there’s only a doctor there part time and the nurses handle the brunt of it.

His oxygen keeps getting bumped up oh, and he had a heart attack while he was sedated. Probably due to the fact that he had the hydrochloriquin or just the general stress on his heart.

Think about it for a minute he was admitted to the hospital roughly a week after 9/11. And this past Friday he was put on a ventilator and intubated.

My brother and sister made him DNR. Who knows what kind of quality of life he will have if he wakes up. But the longer you are on a ventilator the less likely you are to wake up and the less likely you are to not experience complications. Not to mention long-haul Covid which nobody wants.

He has been estranged from his son my brothers father. Unfortunately my brothers father had such a drug problem that I really feel he has brain damage, bitter, angry and a little crazy.
They actually had a restraining order put on my stepfather because he kept threatening to come to the farm and “take what was his quote. In fact we are not even sure how he or the grandfather sister found out about him being sick unless the grandfather told him before he was severely ill. Because I think they’re looking at dollar signs.
The grandfather has minimal rights because it’s taxes. So he gets royalties paid every month based on the oil drilled out of the ground and whatever else there is in the ground that’s considered minerals
My brother was under the impression that everything was left his sister, but his sister thinks everything was left to the both of them so who knows because it’s not the priority. It is a slow painful waiting period.

It is a slow painful death no matter how much morphine they are giving him. He can’t communicate if he hurts so they just have to make assumptions. Yet they don’t want to suppress his respiratory system. I’ll share all of this with you in case there are people out there who don’t believe in masks social distancing or vaccines. All it would’ve taken was a mask at the car show. He lives in a small town and spends so much time on his farm his likelihood of getting involved with people in close contact with minimal. But then he went to a car show which really should be considered a super spreader event.

And he was very healthy. Very active. You have to be if you’re rounding up cattle.

Make no bones about it he will die and soon. My brother is going to be devastated. Because out of that side of the family other than a sister the grandfather is the only one to talk to him because he’s gay and his father has issues with that among other things.
He didn’t believe in vaccines so he wasn’t vaccinated.

He didn’t really believe in Covid which is why he was taking ivermectin.
And if doctors are busy prescribing hydroxychloroquine out there it makes me question their medical degree. Study adversity has shown its ineffective and possibly dangerous. Please get vaccinated. Please wear masks even in places that don’t require them. I wear one anytime I’m in a store, Office, or anybody really.
This ignorant man is going to die because he believed misinformation, the right wing media, and whoever he’s surrounded himself with. Because we all know peer pressure of any kind is hard to resist. People always think it’s just somebody on TV that has this happened to them. But this drug close to home. And otherwise healthy man an active man is dying of Covid right now. All because he went to a car show with no mask. I don’t know if it was indoors but I suspect it was outdoors.
I welcome your thoughts and your contributions to this thread.

On top of all of that my brother and other nurses are getting fed up and sick over people refusing all of these interventions and getting sick and dying.
My brothers aunt had to wait 18 hours to get a bed in ICU because they were full of Covid patients. How can an emergency room treat trauma patients if they’re busy pushing oxygen and ventilators? Feel free to share what you will.

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I'm still lying low by buying food in the early morning, avoiding crowds. When is this going to end? I am becoming an ultimate hermit, going out when nobody is around and trying to talk to people only when absolutely necessary. I don't really like living this way. Without talking to my students, I would be going stir-crazy. I am rather sociable usually. I love talking to people. So, my job keeps me sane. I feel blessed to have a job although it pays poorly. I can eat, sleep with a roof over my head, have running water and electricity. I am grateful for what I have but living like a gopher hermit is not a life. I hope the situation improves soon.

I am lucky to be healthy. I was living precariously for a while, eating out, meeting people, and not really not following guidelines since I was vaccinated. I heard about the delta variant though and it made me re-think my behavior. It's no joke that people are dying from covid-19.

I will continue lying low until I look out of my gopher hole and see that life around me has returned to some normalcy. Until then, I will dig my hole deeper by continue focusing on my work and sleeping.

Oh well, does anybody out there have any good news?
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Default Oct 07, 2021 at 06:11 PM
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Sarah, really sorry about your step-grandfather.

Bpforever1 - i guess we just wait it out?
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Default Oct 09, 2021 at 06:11 PM
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I am doing well despite laying low for now. I am busy working, reading, and writing. I am still sleeping a lot. I feel fine. I am doing well. Honestly, talking to my students helps with my sanity. I don't feel lonely. I am busy so don't have time to think about loneliness too. And, I sleep like a baby. I should exercise more. I will once I feel more motivated about it. So far, I feel ok. I would feel great if I had someone nearby who can help me with my daily chores. But, I have no one. And, I will not find anybody. So, I am satisfied with being alone and laying low for now. I am doing rather well despite the pandemic. I am grateful.
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Default Oct 11, 2021 at 03:32 PM
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I feel fine still. I am a gopher though. I am digging around in my apartment for peace and comfort. I buy my food at wee hours in the morning. I go out only when necessary. What a life!! Well, at least, I'm getting my work done. I talk only to my students and parents.

I am happy despite this. I don't know why. They say: fools are always happy.

“There are four varieties in society – the lovers, the ambitious, observers, and fools. The fools are the happiest.”

— Hippolyte Taine

“The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes.”
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I will continue being happy. I am grateful for my life and health. I feel blessed. So, why should I be sad? I am alone but doing well. I could not be better.
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Default Oct 14, 2021 at 03:19 PM
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I am vaccinated but still wear a mask. I have an autoimmune disease. I think what some people aren't understanding is that some of us...have health problems that are pre-existing, and deserve to be kept safe. I do social distance as well. I do wash my hands properly and frequently. People can believe what they want about the pandemic but is it's the consequences of their own choices they will have to deal with. There's plenty of information and warnings out there about COVID. I understand people are tired of wearing masks, they're tired of the situation. The truth is, we are all tired and exhausted and have been since it started. The world as we know it is different at the moment. Change can be hard to handle. When we are safe with ourselves we make it safe for other people too.

I had a lot of practice before this pandemic started. I was recovering from my autoimmune disease after radioactive treatment. I already was used to being alone because, for months, almost all I could do was lay in a bed. So for me, it hasn't been that hard. I try not to let the fear and anxiety of it grip me and have a boundary between myself and what is going on. Just so I can stay sane and stable. But I still do my part with the masks, social distancing, and vaccination.
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