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Default Jan 24, 2022 at 03:14 AM
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I forgive, but forgiving is for me, not them. Seriously if I have to continually forgive someone, I distance myself from them because I don't want to be around people I continually have to forgive

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I forgive, but forgiving is for me, not them. Seriously if I have to continually forgive someone, I distance myself from them because I don't want to be around people I continually have to forgive
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I may forgive my abuser,if she comes clean agrees she did what she did.I do not even need an apology from her.All it takes for her is to just validate my experiences and my suffering. A couple of times I tried that in a subtle way.Not those incidents for which there are no witnesses( She was smart enough to abuse in sneaky ways while no one else was watching).There are some incidents where others were present and they know something happened but they know it differently. So I tried to get her to acknowledge those.She blatantly denied and said my memory is playing tricks on me.So she will never give me a closure....can't forgive her.There was a lot of anger and resentment seething in me.I have processed and calmed down a bit.There is a constant sadness and grief now.It may take a lifetime to heal.I will not be able to forgive or forget .
The fact that the person has empathy enough to accept (s)he hurt you and apologise helps a lot to grieve and overcome the situation, always the offender offer a genuine apology. It some kind show the person is ready to rectify and we can begin to build from that.
I know it’s said forgiveness is more for ourselves and I agree it’s sane for us but I don’t find easy at all. I think it requires a long process of first, accepting the situation and secondly, try to understand why the other person behaved in the way (s)he did it.

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I think it requires a long process of first, accepting the situation and secondly, try to understand why the other person behaved in the way (s)he did it.
Accepting the situation doesn't mean you have to agree with or even think it was ok.....sometimes "accepting" just means you acknowledge to yourself that something happened exactly as you experienced it. Honestly some evil people we will NEVER understand why the other person behaved in the way they did. Most times when people like that tell you something it is either an excuse or a lie & just creates more confusion. Each situation has to be analyzed for what it is.

I have lots of situations in the first half of my life I will never REALLY know why the people behaved the way they did. Some of that just takes "radical acceptance" that it was what it was. Many of those people are no longer alive. The one who is keeps doing stupid things that effect my life from 2100 miles away. I forgive but still take action to protect myself against the stupid financial crap he causes. Some just gets put in the hands of lawyers because nothing I can actually do.

There is no "one size fits all" answer to this or "one size fits all" solution for dealing with it.

My daughter experienced some tough stuff in our bad marriage. I was finally able to let her know I was sorry & understood after getting out of the bad marriage & analyzing it. She was also able to see & understand both sides & still be ok with both of us. His family hated me for walking out on him but my daughter now understands why I had to do what I did with that....but many times that opportunity doesn't happen to learn the "why"

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I understand forgiveness is for the forgiver. In my opinion it is not a decision to make ,it has to come naturally.It all depends on the duration and intensity of the hurt.It also depends on how close the perp is to the victim.One cannot just wake up from sleep one fine morning and forgive someone.After accepting that the experiences are real and it was abuse,the painful process of trying to heal begins.Its like layers of an onion.I just scratched the skin.More to peel .Maybe one day forgiveness comes naturally to me.I tried to know why...why the abuse happened? I couldn't find any reason. It's a mystery. What has happened with me, I will never be able to wrap my head around it all
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I think the one thing that also has been true for me is that I can end up forgiving a person BUT I still don't have to LIKE the person

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IMO some things are unforgivable.

My sister manipulating my parents to think I stole from them when she was the one stealing is unforgivable. And she continued that lie in writing and to lawyers and a judge.
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IMO some things are unforgivable.

My sister manipulating my parents to think I stole from them when she was the one stealing is unforgivable. And she continued that lie in writing and to lawyers and a judge.
I forgive because holding onto the anger only hurts me, not them cause they could care less how we feel. I would have lots of reasons to not forgive my ex for everything. I choose to forgive him but I will never like him EVER. Forgiving let's me release the anger inside me & get on with MY life.

I saw how my unforgiving grandma was regarding her brother & their inheritance (he died before I was born) It made her into a very bitter old lady & I swore I would never let that happen to me. I think all that held in anger made her a very dangerous alzheimers person too who struck out at family. We really don't know how held in anger from not forgiving can effect us later in life besides keeping us bitter throughout our life

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IMO some things are unforgivable.

My sister manipulating my parents to think I stole from them when she was the one stealing is unforgivable. And she continued that lie in writing and to lawyers and a judge.
I agree some things just are unforgivable, I think it’s still possible to come to acceptance and peace within oneself without feeling forgiveness, if that makes sense. I hope you can get that acceptance and peace if you don’t already.

We had a similar thing happen with my aunt and uncle, one of my cousins did this to them just before they died, he extorted money from them under false pretences. I think he may be a sociopath. I personally don’t feel forgiveness is appropriate, it’s not mine to forgive, his parents forgave him all through their lives and he abused their love and trust for them. He didn’t visit them when they went into care and didn’t go to their funerals, he was right there when the solicitor read the Will I understand. If I saw him I’d cross the street. I accept what he did, I’m at peace that he evaded the law, I hold only love in my heart for my aunt and uncle. He is nothing to me, I’m not bitter, but I accept he is what he is and will continue to lie, cheat and manipulate. Forgiveness not even relevant in this case IMO.

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What you described was something outside of your personal life. And you learned to keep a distance from the selfish and self serving person. So you were not personally scape goated and abused.
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What you described was something outside of your personal life. And you learned to keep a distance from the selfish and self serving person. So you were not personally scape goated and abused.
Yes you’re right he was not directly exploiting me, I hope I haven’t offended you?

I had to keep a very close eye in this individual to make sure he didn’t exploit anymore of my older family, he had actually tried with my parents too, but they rebuffed him.

My point was meant to be, forgiveness is not always necessary or possible because of the persistent danger a person may pose.
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No, you did not offend me. I have a hard time with this and what has been hard for me is experiencing a sister that wanted me to suffer. It gave her pleasure and she did some very down right cruel things that traumatized me.

I do not understand the joy and satisfaction toxic people experience when they want another to hurt.
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No, you did not offend me. I have a hard time with this and what has been hard for me is experiencing a sister that wanted me to suffer. It gave her pleasure and she did some very down right cruel things that traumatized me.

I do not understand the joy and satisfaction toxic people experience when they want another to hurt.
No I can understand that you would struggle with that. I don’t understand it either.
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No, you did not offend me. I have a hard time with this and what has been hard for me is experiencing a sister that wanted me to suffer. It gave her pleasure and she did some very down right cruel things that traumatized me.

I do not understand the joy and satisfaction toxic people experience when they want another to hurt.
Some things I will never understand. Acknowledging that fact & accepting it, is a good thing cause then we don't get stuck there & can go on.

Some people will hurt anyone that gets in the way of their agenda. If it wasn't you, it would have been who ever else was in her way. The things I found have been most traumatic in my life are the things where I had initial expectations & they didn't go that way but went against those expectations in a very hurtful way. Seems like expectations magnified the trauma & made it much worse.

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What I experienced was a horror show. Beyond creepy and evil.
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What I experienced was a horror show. Beyond creepy and evil.
Yes it was & will never be understood because you are not the mind of the person (your sister) doing it. Easy to get hung up trying to understand something we never can understand though & that can keep us stuck

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So true.Some things are hard to forgive.IMO,the hurt that was unintentional,if you know what I mean,like a person didn't do or say things with the intent to hurt others,but the others got hurt anyways,those are easy to forgive.In most instances the person apologizes and makes changes in their own behaviors.To err is human and those acts or words should be forgiven.But when things are said and done knowingly with cruel intent to harm then how can they be forgiven??It's not that easy.How can one forgive the predators?. What is more important in these scenarios is to forgive ourselves for trusting the perps.We should forgive ourselves for not being more protective of ourselves and for being that naive.
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Part of the challenge has been how I could have loved someone who could be that dark and cruel. And calculating.

I don’t have that kind of dark in me. I don’t fantasize revenge either, just want the truth exposed.

People who fall into the dark triads fantasize about causing harm and punishment. Not anything I do as a human being.

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“Sometimes people try to destroy you because they recognize your power, not because they don’t see it but because they see it and don’t want it to exist”.

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Part of the challenge has been how I could have loved someone who could be that dark and cruel. And calculating.

I don’t have that kind of dark in me. I don’t fantasize revenge either, just want the truth exposed.

People who fall into the dark triads fantasize about causing harm and punishment. Not anything I do as a human being.
This is where the "expectations" I talked about come in. Society tells us that "this is the way" a sister or husband SHOULD BE, so that is what we expect & gear our feelings along those lines. Women go into marriage thinking of oh how good it is (expectations). Then when it turns out to be abusive, they are still stuck on their expectation thinking & many times don't see it for what reality actually is. Sometimes they just don't want to let go of the "expectation" thinking it can't possibly be wrong even when reality is hitting them right in the face. Sometimes we need to ask ourselves why we can't let go of the unrealistic expectations & see reality.

I know in my case, I expected a college educated guy to NOT be like my uneducated dad in his thinking & actions. Unfortunately, that was not what I got & maybe the college education made him worse. Then with a mom who said, don't worry, he will grow up & become responsible.....I let the crap slide for way too long before having enough. My unrealistic expectations got me into a marriage my red flags said not to. Sometimes we let things slide also because at the moment they are not effecting us as negatively as they end up doing in the long run & we can look back & see the signs. But I have to be pushed to my limit before I will walk away & like the legal actions just took too long in my case & left me in the situation I am in now. Things are actually much more complex when we are going through it & outsiders tend to minimize it too at times. It is difficult to go back & recreate every "why" that made us think the way we did & even that can drive us crazy if we continue to try. I tend now to just learn from that past, the basics so I don't fall into a trap like that again.

Yes, part of forgiveness is about forgiving ourselves for not seeing the situations soon enough or even for not taking action when our gut feelings said something seemed wrong (in one of my cases, I had no idea what action to take & was forced into reaction mode) life is complex & we need to be more forgiving to ourselves too & not get stuck there either

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