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#221
I feel right annoyed at amazon
I was meant to get a delivery on the 9th april, and it is still not here. the delivery tracking tells me nothing, and the seller is being unresponsive that aside, not eating properly, rested for 5 weeks and fallen way too often, but yeah.... I'm here I guess |
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I have restricted food today because I wasn't feeling good. And I've taken all my prescribed meds early because of anxiety which means I'm going to be on my zoom therapy appointment completely baked. I'm sure she'll be happy about all this. The only way to save my *** is if I can take a short nap before the appointment. If I can't wake up from the nap then I'll either need to explain myself real good or prepare for possibly going IP.
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My anxiety was pretty tough today. Probably due to last night and the caffeine I had this morning. I only ate my safe foods but at least I ate. I spent most of the day curled up in a ball reading because of the anxiety. But I don't think that was necessairly a bad way to cope today. I am feeling better now though.
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My mom, well actually nobody knows just how bad things really are for me. My meds arent working anymore. Its like I'm not even on them anymore. Food doesnt taste good anymore plus I can't eat much in general and my head always hurts and theres just all this anxiety that never stops no matter what I do. It used to be just when the weather was bad. Now its happening when the weather is nice. And my valiums go straight through me. Forget about leaving the house. I can't even go into a gas station for a soda. People who are pushing me to go back to work right now are nuts. I nean, things are bad. Literally nothing brings me joy anymore. At least I'm over my transference therapist or else I'd be off the deep end for sure if I still had thoughts and feelings for her.
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I was doing great for a number of hours and now I just feel crappy and I feel like I have to put on this happy face because its Easter and I have to wait to eat dinner instead of just eating whatever whenever I feel like it. And I know its going to be super late because dinner is always late when my sister is over. And I just can't ****ing eat dinner after a certain time or I won't eat at all. And I know that sounds super childish but I have this like fear or aversion or OCD or something thats going on where I can only eat during certain time frames and its been getting really intense lately and its really affecting my quality of life and my physical health as well since most of the time if dinner is too late I just say eff it and eat crackers instead.
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My med management has gotten a lot better these couple days and I can feel my sleep improving as well. But that just makes my physical issues more obvious. Things are tough physically especially at this moment. My tylenol wore off so I just took some more 15 minutes ago. I'm hoping it kicks in. I ate a plain hot dog because I was hungry and hadn't eaten much all day and I'm kind of feeling it now. If I don't eat I'm fine. But its not like I just can't eat.
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My pain and anxiety are ok today. I'm still not very hungry but I don't feel sick after I do eat. I just feel a little bit tired today mainly. I ate 2 lunchables but the mozzerella in my cheese pizza one went flying because the top was hard to open. I just stared at all that cheese on my bed feeling a bit defeated since I needed those calories. I salvaged what I could of the cheese and it was ok. So far I havent needed any tylenol, my one new med is working. I went out to a couple stores without an issue and even took my time to browse the freezer section looking for something specfic. Normally I am so antsy I want to be in and out. But yeah today wasn't bad.
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I'm doing good today. I got a lot done today with little anxiety and I did a lot of stuff that would have been hard for me to do even a week ago. I am at this moment a bit concerned I'm getting my moms cold just based on this weird feeling I have in my throat that feels like it could be the start of a sore throat. Thats what my mom had too at first. I'm just trying not to panic right now. But overall today was pretty good physical and mental health wise.
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I'm trying today but I woke up really anxious so my med management has been kinda screwy. I also didn't balance my calories out well and I had a lot of food that wasn't really good. And I had a couple full calorie drinks. So now I don't have much calories left for dinner and I'm just headachy and tired in general and I don't know if I'm getting what my mom has or if its just a contiunation of the stuff I had earlier this week. I'm also having body image issues and I can't tell if the stuff I'm seeing is legit there or not. I'm losing weight but not at the rate I'd like to and I just feel like I have a lot more to lose and I'm already at a pretty averarge weight for someone my height. Honestly sometimes I just feel burned out from doing my shot every 1.5 weeks and I feel like going to every week is a good idea mental health wise.
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I been trying to keep myself busy to distract myself from how I had been feeling lately. I am emotionally numb.
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:hug: :grouphug: :yourock: You doing amazingly well. It a great way to have a positive attitude.
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I'm doing good. I decided to go back to the full dose doing once a week of my injections instead of the split dose I was on before every 1.5 weeks. Yesterday was miserable so I contacted my doctor yesterday afternoon and once I got the ok around 5 I went ahead right away with the shot. I woke up this morning and felt an an almost huge difference right away with my moods. The only issue is I have been super hungry all day so I've been binge watching TV and drinking flavored iced teas to distract myself from my hunger. I've still been eating though. But its nice not to have an insane amount of anxiety or moodniess.
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I'm not coping very well & not posting like I want.
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Drinking some water and writing some notes out to myself about what I think of certain things.
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I was doing ok all day but I kinda did something I shouldnt have but I didn't actually do it yet. I ordered something I probably shouldnt have but its coming tommorow so I can't use it anyways for another week or so. But anyways I drank a protein drink and it currently isn't agreeing with me and I'm wondering if those are part of why my stomach gets upset a lot. I don't know if they interact with meds at all.
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