Mountaindewed

Today hasn't been going well and I havent been handling things well either. I woke up to find a $250 bill from my biopsy in my inbox. I mean yeah I know it could have been worse but I'm already on 2 payment plans for medical bills plus paying for therapy every week and I just had another procedure yesterday. Then the lady at Sonic gave me a medium drink when I asked for a mini. She didn't charge me for a medium and I know I should be happy and she was trying to be nice but it just irks me when they do this because people order specfic sizes for specfic reasons. Like what if I had diabetes or something. Anyways I vented my frustration to my therapist but my comment sounded like I was being fat phobic. She didn't catch on and I thought she was acting weird because of the comment so I asked if she was upset at what I said. And she had no clue what I was talking about. So I BS'd around the issue before repeating the comment I had made earlier. Our internet connection was bad the entire session. She said something about me being a green or a red light. Not sure which one and I don't know What either means. and that I need to be careful with what I say and that maybe I don't want to get better. Our internet connection was so ****ed up though I didn't get more then half of what she said at the end so I emailed her and asked if she'd explain what she meant. It was just a mess all around today. The entire day.

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I still need love cause I'm just a man

I was assigned female at birth. My pronouns are he/him. It's not ok to ask me what's in my pants.

AgentQ9A

My favorite band released new music today. I listened to it and it was great. But this afternoon has gone to s**t. Not sure if I ate too much lunch or what, but Friday afternoons and evenings are generally pretty good, but today went south on me. Hopefully with a cooler weekend I can get back to something less bad. Anyway, music and getting lunch out is how I'm coping. I wish it were working better.

Mountaindewed

I posted a couple angry reposts and memes on Facebook this morning. But people just agreed with them I didnt have to argue with anyone. My visible anger and moods were in check. I had a panic attack I couldnt tell if it was lack of food or side effects from my new med or just related to everything else going on. But right at this moment I feel ok. My med management has been a bit off because of the issue last night although I still think I could have thought things out better. But now I'm not sure. I think my blood level is high again but my lab test isn't until the 8th. After my big family BBQ. So idk. I went back to sonic though this morning and this time the same lady gave me the correct size drinks and she was crabby. Maybe she was mad I wasn't appreciative of her yesterday. Thats not my problem though.

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I still need love cause I'm just a man

I was assigned female at birth. My pronouns are he/him. It's not ok to ask me what's in my pants.

FloatThruThis

I think I’m coping as well as can be expected under the circumstances. Not perfectly, but perfection is overrated.