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Crone
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#441
Very well. I was able to shut down the thoughts last night and get some sleep.
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Poohbah
Member Since Feb 2012
Location: Eastern MD
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#442
Not well. More anxiety. I can't do this!
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#443
I did pretty good today. I needed a nap shortly after I got out of the shower for some reason so I just crashed on the couch from 7-7:30. Then I felt fine. I went to Walmart without an issue. Then I got anxious and overwhelmed and realized it was heat related so I chugged a 12oz gatorade and legit started drinking water and then I was fine. I ate today but I skipped dinner. I have therapy in the morning and I don't know what to expect but I'm trying not to focus on it
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#444
I'm using Radical Acceptance from DBT today.
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#445
I didn't do the best because I was sleep deprived. I managed though to be functional at least until therapy was over and then I've been in bed ever since. My eating has been fine. I haven't had much soda so I've been able to eat substanional things all day. Mainly my issue is that I'm just very tired. My agoraphobia is kinda getting bad even though hardly any one even glances at me. I wonder if I do need to bring this up with my pdoc even though I'm so anti meds.
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Member Since Oct 2019
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#446
I’m feeling anxious tonight about what is happening in my country politically- it’s so ridiculous it might be funny if it weren’t so deadly serious. It’s the darkest time I’ve ever seen in politics.
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#447
Took a break to go interview at a job. I know, I know. I added no stress to my plate and it was a really good experience to get out there for this reason.
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Wise Elder
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#448
My sister best friend has really hurt my feeling today when I asked a simple question. I tried to ignore the rude treatment. I apologized for any rudeness on my end that had upset her even though my sister friend should have apologized to me.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#449
I’ve been feeling jittered by the political situation here and more anxiety than usual but trying to think positively about the future. It’s been a bright sunny day here, I swam in the morning and this evening I felt most at peace watering the yard.
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#450
I did good today. I actually had the TV on instead of just posting on here all day. I also organized my mess in the garage and it looks a ton better. My agoraphobia is really bad. I'm getting really scared to leave my house. Although I do feel confident I can go back to work once the name change is taken care of and once my vacation is over. I am looking forward to my vacation in about a month
I wasn't very hungry today but I did eat. I'm wondering if I just can't taste a lot of food for some reason. I just haven't liked food lately. Everything I eat just doesn't taste good to me except for soda. I know the meds I'm on can change my senses. Its not really concerning me but its like I don't want my life to go down the drain before I'm 30. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Wise Elder
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#451
One of my online friends was very hurtful to me in the email that I had received and the bad voicemail that was left and the phone call I had received. Which had really hurt my feeling.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Poohbah
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#452
More anxiety. Can't find a new therapist, they're all booked.
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#453
My anxiety has been absolutly awful all day for no reason. I've had to just zone out in front of the TV and watch Top Model and eat whatever I wanted to. I ate stuff this morning but then I haven't eaten since 11:30 maybe and I'll skip dinner but I literally ate both a hot dog and a piece of pizza in one sitting. So of course I wouldn't be hungry for the rest of the day. Anyways I'm trying to just relax for the night and get my anxiety under control because I don't know whats bugging me so badly.
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#454
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That's me now. Nice to know I'm not alone with these feelings. I started the day not coping too well. But after a nap positive thoughts took over God Bless Last edited by MaverickLovesYou; Jul 08, 2022 at 08:57 PM.. |
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#455
Just like nothing brings me joy anymore. I'm beyond down in the dumps. My mom says tommorow will make me feel a lot better and my pdoc says it will boost my confidence too.
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#456
I been feeling really down lately and been in tears. I don't know why that is the case.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Apr 2012
Location: Ontario, Canada
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#457
Dear Buffy,
It sounds like you've been really badly let down by people close you you, a lot lately. I know, for myself, that when disappointments come along like one right after another, it can bring me pretty low for a while. I hope better things start happening for you. Keep busy, and engage in things you like to do, which give you good vibes and lots of validation. |
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#458
Today has been pretty tough but I've been able to talk about things with my mom. I got some things started this morning with my laywer. I got a pdoc appointment set up for next Monday. A therapy appointment set up for tommorow. I rescheduled a doctors appointment. Today was productive but I'm just getting super worn down by this nonstop anxiety and agoraphobia and these sleep issues and I'm honestly getting very concerned for my future. Based on the lawyers appointment today it will still be a bit before I am comfortable going back to work so I have time to work on my anxiety. If my pdoc can help me out somehow without me gaining 30 pounds from a med I'd gladly take his help.
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#459
Buffy, sorry you're feeling down. Think positive. Don't accept negative thoughts/feelings. That's where I'm at now. Trying to fix myself & I know it starts with what I think & what I tell myself, what I feed my brain. God Bless
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#460
I'm coping by being here. It's been a while. I'm trying to use DBT techniques and journal. I'm also working on music and talking with people. So all of that is helping. Today was pretty bad. I was crying for almost an hour.
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