How are you coping today? #6

I was doing bad but I am starting to move past things. I just am nauseated once again. My mom is cleaning the litter box so that might be it. I started using my fabric spray on my blankets and pillow cases the other day so I'm wondering if I am just having issues with that stuff in general.

I’m trying to figure out how to be happy with my life by trying to figure out how to heal my wounds.

I was feeling bad for being disowned. But, I will be ok. Life has its ups and downs. I am free here and nobody bothers me. I could feel sorry for myself. But, I'm actually happier being on my own. I just need to find another job again. I quit my other job since I thought my mother would help me. Oh well, never go on promises never kept by others. I will survive but it is hard to do everything on my own.

I avoided two planned things today. Maybe I should stop planning to go to yoga on Saturday, I never feel like going. The other was a volunteer thing I wasn't keen on / was kind of nervous about.

I started taking an increased dose of my ad starting yesterday. I *am* feeling better-ish, though yesterday it made me tired. It didn't make me tired today.

Its freezing here.

I'm an avoider, too. And I always feel bad about myself when I end up doing that. It's a sad decision for me.

I'm allergic to the ''meds'' I avoid too.... try not to blame yourself too much. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Paws crossed

I feel terrible after I avoid. Its not a healthy coping mechanism for me. I've gotten better at not avoiding, over the years, with hard work, but lately I have been slipping.


Hugs, Dawn.

Thanks so much for the kind words and encouragement Fuzzy. I really appreciate it. Not sure if you were posting to Dawn or me, but reading what you said was helpful.


Hugs.

God bless you, my friends! Your kind of people help me feel I'm not alone. I will keep trying. I have succeeded before, so I know it's possible. And I wish the very best for you!

I'm busy revamping my resume. But, it is tiring. I have to really work on it. I found some leads and am working on sending out my applications. It took me about three hours to find three jobs that are doable. Oh well, I am slow. I have to work on sending out my applications probably tomorrow when I can concentrate. I am so tired from going out to see my psychdoc. He told me to return in a month or sooner. I am stressed out but will survive.

@bpforever1, you are magnificent!

even worse than yesterday.... and yesterday was super bad!

apparently it gets worse..

Have been working extra so that has been something to cope with, it’s actually been okay. I’m eating too much chocolate though, and that isn’t in alignment with my aim to lose a few lbs and get fitter. But it’s February so cutting myself some slack.

Mostly I'm using distraction.

I have feelings of self-doubt. I'm wondering if I heard what the interviewer said today. I have an interview but am unconfident in my abilities. It is nerve-wracking to be so nervous. Oh well, such is my life!

Despite my anxiety being through the roof I didn't do bad at controlling it. I stayed on track with all my meds and I kept my visible moods and anxiety in check. I did not participate much but I also didn't bring anyone down.

I feel this way so much of the time, even though I believe in my CBT training. It's so hard sometimes to believe in the most beauiful things.

I have 20+ years of experience in my field and I'm now at a point where I don't believe I'll be able to go back. Self-doubt and very low self esteem. Yuck.

I wish you luck with your interviews.

I'm hanging in there! I am feeling grateful for my life, health, and situation. I am free! I also am compliant and am taking good medication. I am resting and remaining calm until my interview. No matter what happens, I'll be ok. I feel blessed that I have food to eat and a place to sleep. I am also thankful for the opportunities people are giving me. I don't have much but being free and taking care of myself are a bonus. The doctor told me to return sooner if I have problems. I also can take more medication if I'm too stressed out. So far, I'm ok. I love myself and my life that God gave me. So, no time to feel sorry for myself. I am taking it one day at a time. I do see a rainbow now after the storm. I choose to be ok and happy, not down and out. I hope, of course, things work out for me. I am nervous about my interview but will survive. No matter what happens I will continue persevering. Thinking about my past, I've come a long way since the days when I hated taking my medication. I am past this now. I need to focus on what I can do for myself and do my best with what I have.

I was trying to go grocery shopping on a holiday. But I let my anxiety get the best of me today. So I did not cope the greatest But even at 9:30AM the stores were very crowded. I didn't do anything bad to cope I just didn't get done what I wanted to do. So I guess my quality of life was affected today. Hopefully tommorow my anxiety won't be so high.