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ladyofmistakes
Hurting Beyond Belief
Member Since: Nov 2022
Location: United States
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#821
Some time in the near future I will have to be either moving in with my mom in a small two-bedroom house, or into a low-income housing apartment whenever the next one becomes available. I don't like how I'm going to be able to do either of them. I am SO scared to live on my own and have to go to the store or get gas myself. Living with my mom would be different-- eventually I'd resent her--- for what?! My situation?! What's the saying- we kick those we love...??And we'd get on each other's nerves like mad. Not too much space in that house but I would feel safer. I'd feel more stuck too. How do I decide this?!! Also, what do you all do when you're anxious about something and just.can Not get it off your mind. I've tried distractions. Doesn't work. For a few minutes but then I'm right back to thinking about it all again. Ooohhh I don't know what to do!!!!!
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#822
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#823
I feel like a mess. I have my period and I'm assuming this amongst other things is exhausting me. I cried a bit on the train today. Just like 3 or 4 tears, easily wiped away. I did not see them coming. Therapy felt intense the last 2 times. Perhaps that is another reason. Maybe T is testing my limits.
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#824
I do this thing that I'm not quite sure is healthy or not. I'm not even sure why I do it. Maybe I just legit like doing them and theres no ulterior motive. Basically when I'm in my homestate I like to go to all the stores I went to before Covid got really bad. And I'm not sure if its because it was right before my life got turned upside down, or if it has something to do with my old therapist and the video sessions. I've never really figured it out though.
I think I did good today. I was kinda crabby at one point, but I think it was mostly my mom. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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ladyofmistakes
Hurting Beyond Belief
Member Since: Nov 2022
Location: United States
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#825
Mountaindewed we all have our vices. What I "turn to" in such hours of crises is something that has almost killed me a couple times. Would you care to share to the board? If not, feel free to write me. I will listen.
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#826
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#827
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#828
HI @ladyofmistakes, hope you're managing well with your new situation. Can definitely relate to having to adjust to change, yes.
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Maybe start by doing small things on your own first, and then slowly build up from there to the bigger things little by little, day by day, becoming more independent. You'll be proud of yourself for achieving these things, for pushing through the fears, and you can give yourself a pat on the back for reaching out to find solutions too. Maybe the 'doing small things first' can be the distraction for you, from the anxiety of thinking about it. And perhaps apply this principle to changing your approach with your mom as well - to one of peace and tolerance, love - all of these kinds of things. Because it's all about changes taking place.🙂🙏 __________________ "A flower falls, even though we love it; and a weed grows, even though we do not love it."- Dōgen
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#829
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Hope you're coping well too, my friend. ((Hugs)) __________________ "A flower falls, even though we love it; and a weed grows, even though we do not love it."- Dōgen
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#830
Hopeless, i just want to hide in silence
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#831
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#832
I'm coping today by writing some journal prompts. Listening to music with some chicken and wild rice soup on the stove. I seem to have looked in the mirror just right at myself and I look different in my perspective. I seem to be coping with it?? I've decided to stop using my phone so much because it seems like it's upsetting me to do that. The laptop is where it's at. I have my cell phone turned off because I need to rely less on it, even as a crutch. I hope that I can find the will power and hence I have asked God to let me just let it be.
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#833
I’m a little anxious about work tomorrow, I’m anxious about a colleague’s well-being too. I’m also a little anxious about my friend who has covid in the family.
However I’m also happy my adult son is home for the weekend and I’m also aware how lucky I am in many ways. |
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ladyofmistakes
Hurting Beyond Belief
Member Since: Nov 2022
Location: United States
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#834
[QUOTE=mote.of.soul;7279047]HI @ladyofmistakes, hope you're managing well with your new situation. Can
I just want to die. Right now. I just need to muster up the courage to try again. Thank you so much. |
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#835
You're welcome @ladyofmistakes, you'll be okay, it'll be difficult but you'll be okay. Keep reaching out on here too please, it may provide you comfort and with ideas to help you navigate through the challenges. Think of it like the little caterpillar transforming into the magnificent butterfly perhaps. Anyway, we're all here on MSF facing challenges too, so you're very much not alone, friend. One day at a time, as they say. 🙏🙏🙏
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#836
I been journaling all of my bad feelings and trying to see the good things in my life.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#837
I feel more stressed about work, there are so many people off sick at the moment I’m struggling with the workload.
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#838
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#839
I'm here on the forums, & I'm trying to plan & visualize better moments ahead.
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#840
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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