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#841
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Wise Elder
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#842
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Member Since Jan 2021
Location: On a raindrop far, far away
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#843
I'm okay-ish. The session today was less emotionally difficult, which is good, cause I have plans tonight.
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#844
I did some cleaning today to keep my mind off of how horrible I been feeling.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Oct 2019
Location: UK
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#845
My head is all over the place and I’m forgetting things and making mistakes all over the place, I need to relax and find a way of coping with the work situation.
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Member Since Dec 2010
Location: Westminster, CO USA
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#846
I’m tired. And stressed. Looking forward to winter though— time for snowshoeing and ice skating and learning to snowboard if I can afford it! Winter is my favorite season, hands down
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Crone
Member Since May 2010
Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system.
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#847
I got up and went to aqua fitness and now trying to psych myself up to shovel the walk!
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#848
Taking one minute at a time, planning, doing little things.
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Wise Elder
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#849
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Member Since Nov 2022
Location: United States
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#850
You are all so wonderful here. I'm so glad I found this site. But what if it's Really True that you got yourself into this situation? That's just another lump of coal on the fire. And there is NOTHING in the world you can do about it.
I threw away the most wonderful and perfect person in my life and, in my mind, that I could ever exist. His decision was certainly abrupt, yes for sure,.but i can now understand how i threw it away. Forgive myself? Not this quickly now way. I want him back so much and he wants nothing to do with me. The last 16 years have all come together all of a sudden and are one big brick wall that doesn't allow anything to do with me be near any part of it. |
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Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#851
I'm kind of under the weather. Physically mostly. My sleep has been bad and I was around a lot of people last week. It could just be my med side effects too. Idk.
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#852
I have been trying to watch Christmas movies and do a little Christmas shopping due to my complicated grief.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#853
I'm trying to get this nausea under control that is making me not hungry so my meds aren't working well which isn't helping my anxiety. Plus I have been unbearably cold for more then a week now. My body temp was 96 this morning I'm just so frigging cold.
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#854
I had the motivation to work out. But not the motivation to clean my room or take a shower or even brush my teeth. I took a shower yesterday afternoon and I used mouthwash and then chewed gum. It took me a few hours to get up the energy to go to my lab work. It honestly just feels like med side effects and not mental health.
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Wise Elder
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#855
I been trying to keep myself busy
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Grand Magnate
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#856
I bought some nice cleaning products to help motivate me to get cleaning done.
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Member Since Oct 2016
Location: Europe
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#857
I screamed but I cant even feel the strong shame because I am so helpless and i know this time it is not my fault
I want to either enter a time machine or close my eyes and my ears I know to think like this is wrong It is wrong but I have been in a hell for six years and as much as it is only my fault, everything hust went beyond |
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Wise Elder
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#858
My niece has really hurt my feelings today.
__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#859
My mother stopped talking to me around 2019 and started to hate me after my fathers' death which was not my fault despite i have been a bad daughter in the last 4 years when unemployed
This is beyond mess and I cant cope. I am waiting for silence to come and i am sorry I cant remember the life before, i know I was not that bad just had to calm down and handle myself better. I used to have my own money and life was ok. I used to be a good daughter All day I keep thinking what happened in beetween. Our lives boiled alive and it was only my fault |
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Wise Elder
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Location: USA
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#860
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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