[black-roses]

For a while I've had low self esteem last year I met someone that I liked and connected with in time I grew to realise I had feelings for him. I was so scared of him knowing because I didn't want to ruin his life he was my maths teacher. I remember thinking it was a miracle that someone attractive like him could possibly like me back. I remember my friends teasing me that he would pass me if I shared my sandwich with him. Well anyway I've come to realise that it was ridiculous thinking that it was a miracle that anyone would like me because I have great traits and looking back. There is this missed opportunity and sadness that I wasn't so confident as I feel there would of been more things I said too him. However, anyway I feel like if and when love finds me I won't be so surprised and think that it must be all in my head that they might like me. Also, I feel like this realisation makes it easier for me to talk to people and I feel comfortable and ready to make friends and go out to places. I want to see what interesting things will happen in my life and I'm not so scared of being abandoned anymore as I feel like my codependency has healed. I felt so dependent on relationships to have a worth but I realise I can have everything now. I don't feel like it's impossible that great things are gonna happen to me and I just feel it's a matter of time.

[Yaowen]

I think life has many wonderful things in store for you. Time will bring you many happy surprises. You are a nice person.