A bitter pill to swallow

So I finally got my IQ tests I expected it to be a number that they would assign me but instead there was 4 parts of intelligence that were tested. I got average to above average in verbal skills, spatial skills I got borderline average, memory low average. It was kind of upsetting to hear that I had all these issues the idea of someone having to take care of me my whole life is just very upsetting for me to take. I do hope that this gives me disability because to hear all these awful things about you and nothing to come out of it would suck. Then when I was done with the doctor he said it was just a draft report and he had to talk to the psychologist that did my IQ. I honestly am so upset I just don't feel like a full person that functions to her full potential and it just makes me sad that I need help. I really do wish I could run my own house and my life. It just sucks.

Hi black-roses, it sounds like you are of average intelligence. This is a good thing, I think. It means you are totally capable of running your own life

i was giving the IQ test as a requirement for high school and scored lowed because of how i was tested. I tested again in my early twenties. Now i tested again and is waiting for the results. I understand how you feel about not being allowed to run or own your own life and home.

May be a good thing to know though.

Makes me think of my ex who I got married to right after he graduated from college & had lived with his parents. Managed to stay with him for 33 years of constant fighting & feeling like I was his mother. I finally left....walked out & moved across the country. He has since lost everything he was left with. Sad because in reality he did need someone to take care of him but there were no facts (test results) to prove it. Sadly I am so glad I didn't stay because my life was being destroyed too.

Sometimes we find test results we may not like but in the long run, it may be a blessing

The thing is I don't want to have someone to always take care of me it makes me feel sad I wish I could get a better functioning brain. This memory issues is so scary I feel like a dementia patient at times. Just robbed me of a bubbly personality and my confidence. I fear for my future I prayed for healing and then to help me psychologically. My mum says they've done little for me I can feel her pain when she fears for my future. I almost don't want to think of the things I could be missing out on. I grieve because I want children and a partner but I am not independent enough would I be like codependent on them? I'm already codependent on my mum. When I think of my future it is too upsetting to think. I just feel like yeah I got these problems right but in all those years what kind of help has these robbing bastards done for me. Other than to take my money and just supremely **** me over. It's easier for me to be swept up in emotion my life is complicated and I long for simplicity. I wonder how a healthy baby can have such a damaged memory all from childhood trauma and yeah the PTSD isn't even the stuff they talk about just the freaking add. As if putting me on meth makes me feel any better. These are the professionals telling me but I know it's the PTSD and the blocked suppressed memory's that are holding me back. Still in this freaking country you have to beg and pine and they still take your ****ing arm off with the amount of money they charge to give you nothing. I should sue the professionals that robbed me of my money especially that autism doctor that scammed me out of money. I don't have faith in these people they only care about there pocket nothing was ever done for my benefit so I hate psychologists and psychiatrists they can burn in hell for ****ing me over and leaving me disabled and fearful.