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I was at a Christmas party and declared my feelings. I cannot hide how I feel. I'm single I'm depressed about it. But I don't want just anyone. I want someone who loves me completely. Flaws and all. I don't want to extend my life in any way shape or form. I also won't end it, even if I wish I could I have owed I wouldn't because my son did and that would crush my daughter. She is my only reason for living. And she's grown. listening to music and crying cause I'm just so sad at how my life has turned out. I cannot live with my mistakes. There are too many and I just hate who I am. __________________ Son: 14, 12/15/2009 R.I.P. Daughter: 20 Diagnosis: Bipolar with Psychosis. Latuda 100 mgs. Last edited by CANDC; Dec 02, 2022 at 01:43 PM.. Reason: Add trigger icon |
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I'm sorry you are feeling so... uh... despondent? Is that the right term? I struggle with the same feelings every day. "I cannot live with my mistakes. There are too many and I just hate who I am." I could have written those exact words myself. Hope you will be able to get back on track with your med's & that they will help you to feel as good as is possible. Best wishes...
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