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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:16 PM
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I'm an avoider, too. And I always feel bad about myself when I end up doing that. It's a sad decision for me.
I grew up being avoided
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:18 PM
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I'm allergic to the ''meds'' I avoid too.... try not to blame yourself too much. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Paws crossed
I am allergic to the smell of pots
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:20 PM
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I feel terrible after I avoid. Its not a healthy coping mechanism for me. I've gotten better at not avoiding, over the years, with hard work, but lately I have been slipping.


Hugs, Dawn.
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I understand how your feelings Don’t be too hard on yourself
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:22 PM
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God bless you, my friends! Your kind of people help me feel I'm not alone. I will keep trying. I have succeeded before, so I know it's possible. And I wish the very best for you!
you have help me in so many ways
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:26 PM
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I'm busy revamping my resume. But, it is tiring. I have to really work on it. I found some leads and am working on sending out my applications. It took me about three hours to find three jobs that are doable. Oh well, I am slow. I have to work on sending out my applications probably tomorrow when I can concentrate. I am so tired from going out to see my psychdoc. He told me to return in a month or sooner. I am stressed out but will survive.
Good luck
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:29 PM
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even worse than yesterday.... and yesterday was super bad!

apparently it gets worse..

I’m sorry I hope everything works out
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:34 PM
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Have been working extra so that has been something to cope with, it’s actually been okay. I’m eating too much chocolate though, and that isn’t in alignment with my aim to lose a few lbs and get fitter. But it’s February so cutting myself some slack.
Keep trying don’t give up
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:35 PM
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Mostly I'm using distraction.
Amazing
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:36 PM
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I have feelings of self-doubt. I'm wondering if I heard what the interviewer said today. I have an interview but am unconfident in my abilities. It is nerve-wracking to be so nervous. Oh well, such is my life!
That is understandable :hug been there myself
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:38 PM
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Despite my anxiety being through the roof I didn't do bad at controlling it. I stayed on track with all my meds and I kept my visible moods and anxiety in check. I did not participate much but I also didn't bring anyone down.
That good
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:39 PM
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I feel this way so much of the time, even though I believe in my CBT training. It's so hard sometimes to believe in the most beauiful things.
I been using the CBT myself
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:41 PM
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I have 20+ years of experience in my field and I'm now at a point where I don't believe I'll be able to go back. Self-doubt and very low self esteem. Yuck.

I wish you luck with your interviews.
I have self doubt and low self esteem
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:44 PM
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I'm hanging in there! I am feeling grateful for my life, health, and situation. I am free! I also am compliant and am taking good medication. I am resting and remaining calm until my interview. No matter what happens, I'll be ok. I feel blessed that I have food to eat and a place to sleep. I am also thankful for the opportunities people are giving me. I don't have much but being free and taking care of myself are a bonus. The doctor told me to return sooner if I have problems. I also can take more medication if I'm too stressed out. So far, I'm ok. I love myself and my life that God gave me. So, no time to feel sorry for myself. I am taking it one day at a time. I do see a rainbow now after the storm. I choose to be ok and happy, not down and out. I hope, of course, things work out for me. I am nervous about my interview but will survive. No matter what happens I will continue persevering. Thinking about my past, I've come a long way since the days when I hated taking my medication. I am past this now. I need to focus on what I can do for myself and do my best with what I have.
I’m glad that you are feeling better :hug. There are always something to : be thankful for
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:47 PM
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I was trying to go grocery shopping on a holiday. But I let my anxiety get the best of me today. So I did not cope the greatest But even at 9:30AM the stores were very crowded. I didn't do anything bad to cope I just didn't get done what I wanted to do. So I guess my quality of life was affected today. Hopefully tommorow my anxiety won't be so high.

I been there myself your not alone . Take it easy on yourself :sadhug.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 08, 2023, 09:48 PM
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I was able to take a couple of naps & I'm playing games here in the forums.
Sometimes we just need to rest
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 09, 2023, 01:55 AM
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Recently I have been coping by using the love I feel towards these wonderful forums & all of you.
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Old Jan 12, 2023, 12:24 AM
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I've been coping by journaling and reading affirmations.
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Old Jan 12, 2023, 08:22 AM
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Exercise and healthier food choices have helped me feel more energised today.
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Old Jan 12, 2023, 11:07 AM
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I've been coping by journaling and reading affirmations.

me too!! i did some writing in my journal and that helped a lot..
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Old Jan 12, 2023, 09:15 PM
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I've been posting in my therapy room. It's helping. And I'm reading.
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Old Jan 13, 2023, 06:47 PM
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I got a quick glimpse of "normal" this afternoon and it made me feel confident and happy. It didn't last, but it was nice. I've decided to break my MO and watch an actual movie tonight and put the laptop away, so I can actually pay attention to the movie. Hopefully being proactive instead of reactive is one small piece of the path I need to get myself on. We'll see.
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Old Jan 13, 2023, 07:07 PM
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I finally ate something & I think I was actually hungry all day & didn't know it.
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Old Jan 13, 2023, 10:18 PM
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I been watching my favorite movies today. In the hope my bad day will turn around
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 13, 2023, 10:27 PM
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I've been coping by journaling and reading affirmations.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch.

Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Jan 14, 2023, 06:57 AM
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I called crisis team to tell them how I feel, it helped.
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