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Default Mar 06, 2023 at 01:09 PM
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In 2018 i had a state of grief followed by a disorder in relationships and then a psychosis in 2019
In 2020 my father died and my mother got cancer, i went into suicidal mode and never got out

I lost everything financially and stopped talking to my old sister

Thought being guilty from the start i can't help but saying to myself that "i dont remember what happened", but it's not true

But again, when I say to myself "i have been a beast" i think at that girl and i can't believe it, cause I actually wasn't
I was a good person but didnt take full charge of things

I am sorry for my family but it is gone, i am helpless
I am so angry with my young self and it is beyond forgiveness

Sorry to anyone who will read, i don't know what to do, wanted to throw this out of my chest
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Sometimes life brings on more than a person is capable of navigating. Not having the life skills to navigate so much traumatic loss doesn’t mean you are a failure.

When you experience suicidal thoughts, never act! Instead reach out so you can have a professional help you slowly work through all the confusing emotions and sense of guilt.
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The way I see it a mental illness such as you describe is no more a choice than a physical illness. It wasn’t your fault you were unwell.
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Thank you for all the kind messages, truth is i might have been broken but I don't deserve kindness

Bless you
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