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My dad is 60 years old. My sister thinks he may not live long. It kind of scares me but I was fine with it. I just have this irrational fear that I will never be successful in my life and I’ll just depend on my father till he dies, after which I will be lost
But that’s not true
I can work on my future
But I don’t know how?
I recently dropped out of college
Because I am recovering from depression
It was due to my mom
Chronic emotional abuse
Like during my childhood and teenage (I’m almost 20 now)
In my house mostly every thing else was kept hidden from my friends
Because that is how abuse is
Calling me names, gaslighting me abandoning me emotionally. She has done a lot of things, but I don’t blame her for it.
I’m seeking therapy now
Getting better
The only way out is, and the reality is, I need to study and I need a job because my dad cannot fund me for ever
But I hope God will take care of me.