Waking up with palpitations

For the last few days it's been awful I've been finding it hard to sleep and when I finally do sleep it's very late. This however is the first time I woke up with heart palpitations I don't know how I'm gonna wake up for tafe when it takes me so long to sleep. This has never happened to me where I wake up suffocated I don't really know what to do I think I'm gonna call mherl. It's a mental health number in Australia

((((black-roses))))

It's good you'll call mherl helpline.

You're going through so much lately, it's no wonder you have palpitations. I know how scary it can be.

Do you have a pdoc? Are you taking medication?

I also want to mention Dr. Claire Weekes' book "Hope and Help for Your Nerves". I got it on audiobook from the library, and there are also clips of her on YouTube.

She's from Australia... and really worth checking out. I wish I had discovered her work years ago.

Awesome thanks I will check that book out

I'm am taking medication but I feel like this has just triggered really obsessive thoughts about men's opinion of me questioning my worth. I feel like what has happened to me was very traumatic I think it's natural for me to be anxious in that, I know I have no control in what others think or say but I lost all confidence and faith in myself it's been a very demoralising experience and I feel sorrowful deep down. I also feel like I didn't do anything wrong and why me? I just don't trust anyone anymore if I had problems with PTSD or other preexisting stuff this definitely exacerbated that. I will talk to my doctor about medications but I know that's there's not much he can do but give me counselling because I'm already tried over 20+ medications. It's just a hard situation because I'm not in a good financial state to see anyone so this was a very low blow and made me feel very lost and empty inside. I don't feel like I have an identity anymore and I'm so curious to why I believe that nudity makes me less worthy of respect maybe society taught me this I dunno. Sorry for the long winded answer I just have so much on my mind it won't stop with its thoughts..I've gotten to some good break throughs in ephinanies definitely gotten to grow some compassion for myself but I just don't know how I trust again or feel like a whole person again. I still feel like I'm in so much disbelief that I still don't believe it.

@black-roses

I strongly urge you to go to a hospital's emergency and speak with a psychiatrist, ASAP. If you do, in fact, have a psychiatrist then I would call urgently and let them know your situation.

I am thinking from your many posts that you might be in the prodromal (beginning stage) of psychosis, if not already psychotic.

This is an assessment scale that I posted elsewhere on the forum.

Psychotic Depression / Depression with psychotic features ASSESSMENT SCALE

I have severe major depression with psychotic features.

I had:
- racing, obsessive thoughts
- epiphanies
- thoughts of reference
- heart palpitations
- agitation (difficult even sitting in one place)
- insomnia
- constipation
- loss of appetite
- and splitting (eg. thinking one gender is all bad, for instance)

(In my case, symptoms increased and I experienced delusions and hallucinations.)

I would strongly urge you to be assessed not only for your state, but your medications (including taking an anti-psychotic)

**** Please, please go get professional help ASAP!! ****

I don't want to scare you, but you need professional help. There is absolutely hope! (Hang on to that! you just need some help for this rough patch). And you are not alone!!

((((HUGS)))))

I don't have psychotic depression I just have ocd and depression so my obsessive thoughts stem from that antipsychotics are a poison for me and I never want to go on that ever again.

I don't really want to see a psychiatrist I had bad experience with them just drugged me up with unnecessary antipsychotics when all I wanted to sleep they couldn't even be bothered to help me get a psychologist. I don't think all men are bad just the person that did this I think they are a damaged and sad person. It's really there problem if they hate women it's not my problem only have anger with that one man that did this that if he was infront of me I don't think he'd be alive and I'd be in jail. That's how I feel because no loving and kind man with compassion would do this to a woman much less a stranger which I feel it might have been. I will be seeing a GP soon and getting NDIS he can do all that without those useless and awful psychiatrists that only really care about being paid not about there patient, they never had my best interest at heart it was really just a money game for them.