[black-roses]

I'm so upset I had to withdraw it would of been more painful to stay and fail so I left to give myself peace I realise now that the course I did and the job role wasn't suitable for who I am now I'm not a responsible or attentive person. I tried to be good enough for that role but I was just causing myself pain Im just not meant to be a nurse and I realise that so I've gone to businesss studies maybe I'll be more worthy and successful at the course.

[unaluna]

The idea of being responsible for human flesh turned me off being a manicurist, so i totally feel you. I had a friend who is a nurse, and i was like, how do you DO that??? She was like, how do you just touch computers all day long?!

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by unaluna

The idea of being responsible for human flesh turned me off being a manicurist, so i totally feel you. I had a friend who is a nurse, and i was like, how do you DO that??? She was like, how do you just touch computers all day long?!

There is definitely an idea about being comfortable with the responsibility of some stuff, but absolutely not others. I was fine with a job I was to respond quick on my feet to mechanical failures, fire hazards, suspicious or disruptive behavior, and just people doing stupid shyt that could get themselves killed, but could I trust myself being a delivery driver for packages or food or anything? Nah, driving varies too much from moseying down a backroad through farm land to being in a contest with others surrounding you as to who can exceed the speed limit the most without being pulled over to the constant stop and go at red lights, stop signs, and crosswalks of the city in like 20 minutes. I am that person that gets off the highway and takes a minute to realize I am no longer on the highway (don't worry I don't drive right now).

[mote.of.soul]

Aw, I'm sorry you had to pull out of the nursing course black-roses but it really doesn't sound, to me, like a case of being irresponsible. And if you're dealing with social anxiety on top of it (untreated?), then those symptoms will double the mental stress of it. It really could affect the ability to focus, sure. Try not to be too harsh on yourself please. Practice of mindfulness can really help to improve focus and coping but not necessarily remove symptoms of SA.🙏

[black-roses]

Yeah the social anxiety does make it harder but maybe I'm not ready for so much responsibility I'm still getting on my feet perhaps should build confidence.

[black-roses]

I think if I had more confidence half my battle would be fought

[eskielover]

I had confidence I could do anything I wanted to do.....well, there were lots of things I didn't want to do & many things I was just better at doing than others. Had nothing to do with being responsible or not. Had everything to do with things I was better at doing than others.

I practiced 8 hours a day working on my music degree only to realize IN REALITY I could never practice enough to have the talent to be a symphony flute player. So I stuck with my level of talent & for fun played in some cool chamber groups while I went after my Accounting & Computer Science degree. Lol....Comp Sci ended up being a minor cause I just squeeked through a year of calculus & knew more calculus would not be possible. Focus for a career involves what we are good at doing & sometimes we don't know until we dabble in it enough to know whether we are that interested or not. Not about responsibility, it is about getting to know yourself, your likes & abilities

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by mote.of.soul

Aw, I'm sorry you had to pull out of the nursing course black-roses but it really doesn't sound, to me, like a case of being irresponsible. And if you're dealing with social anxiety on top of it (untreated?), then those symptoms will double the mental stress of it. It really could affect the ability to focus, sure. Try not to be too harsh on yourself please. Practice of mindfulness can really help to improve focus and coping but not necessarily remove symptoms of SA.🙏

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by eskielover

I had confidence I could do anything I wanted to do.....well, there were lots of things I didn't want to do & many things I was just better at doing than others. Had nothing to do with being responsible or not. Had everything to do with things I was better at doing than others.

I practiced 8 hours a day working on my music degree only to realize IN REALITY I could never practice enough to have the talent to be a symphony flute player. So I stuck with my level of talent & for fun played in some cool chamber groups while I went after my Accounting & Computer Science degree. Lol....Comp Sci ended up being a minor cause I just squeeked through a year of calculus & knew more calculus would not be possible. Focus for a career involves what we are good at doing & sometimes we don't know until we dabble in it enough to know whether we are that interested or not. Not about responsibility, it is about getting to know yourself, your likes & abilities

So true I realised with this course I had a passion for health but I like herbs and tinctures more. If I didn't do this course I never would of realised my passion for natural remedies and now I know that I want to do a naturopathy course. I thought it took me ages but I got to where I am and I think I did it at the right time. I just feel like I know myself so much better after this course and that knowledge that I've found I've found reasons to love myself and feel inspired. I feel much more positive it's like I've changed my point of view of how my life has been and I realised I had to go through all those things to be where I am and I'm starting to love where I and my talents I can actually see lots of natural talents.