[In_The_Darkness]

I got diagnosed with Moderate Depression two years ago. Around 5 months after that I got diagnosed with Severe Depression - partaking in self harm and other damaging behaviors to try and cope with the completely feelings of emptiness.

I ended up out of school, in a psychiatric ward and isolating myself from the outside world. It's been quite a while since then (the end of may) and my mood has improved significantly.

I'm still out of school, I won't be going back (thanks to Asperger Syndrome) BUT the depression got taken back down from Severe to Moderate. Okay...it's not exactly the best success story and it would probably be better to have been put down to Mild or even none at all! But they can't do that because I still experience slight symptoms.

However... I'm happy nearly all of the time and I haven't self harmed gone 3 or 4 months (not counting the one off I had about a month or so ago) and I really feel like getting on with my life. It's been a complete transformation. Now instead of crying about things I just try and find a funny side and laugh at what has happened - though this can sometimes be very tough.

I still have a long way to go: which is why I'm calling this a semi success story. But hopefully it wont be long until I can post a COMPLETE success!!!

Good Luck. No matter how you feel, it's going to be alright. With the right medication and help you will get better in the end. Unfortunately Asperger Syndrome doesn't go away and I will always have problems associated with that...but Depression ? Aaah, it's not as strong as I thought it was.

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That's GREAT news!!! I'm glad hear that you've come so far and I'm wishing you all the best in the future.

[lonegael]

I think it's a great story! It is so hard to move from one little category to the other, and I think you have done so well just since I have been on. CHEERS and rock on!

[msolson81]

Thank you for sharing your success with us. Any shift into a better state should be seen as a huge success and something to be proud of. Keep on keeping on. I wish you the best

[BashfullOne]

"Semi Success" is still Success - and it's great to hear!! I suffer from Manic Depression and have wanted to hurt myself for years - which I've tried and done, and came close to ending it all. But I have finally found a psychiatrist/doctor who understands what is going on with me and treating me with the proper drugs this time. It's been months since I've last wanted to end it all. I thought with it being winter, snowy, cold and icy out, that I would sink into fall into deep depression again - but my medication seems to be holding me steady. I'm feeling good and looking forward to tomorrow! Not only does the proper doctor and medication help, but so does having a loving support group - my family and loving friends! I've come up out of that cold black hole and I'm feeling great! (But if I don't keep on taking my meds, I fall right back into that hole that I toke so long to get out of...)

[In_The_Darkness]

OK. I've failed. Things are back to how they were

[Gently1]

Failed?
Not possible with depression. Unless diabetes is failure or a broken leg then I stand corrected. Illness is illness is illness, except from my experience depression has been worse than the cancer.

Flare-ups which are frustrating, painful even, but remember your post gave a lot of us comfort and hope for our own healing.
And if you did it once you can do it again. Read you post and remember.

Do not forget to get help from your pdoc or doctor.

And there are many more people that can help you at PC.